Episode 1 Lyrics

Hi my name is mayowa akande and this is my so called life

Where to start should I talk past 

Tales of a  lad live fast 

Can't   think  cash go fast 

Same mistake now same place fam

Remember when I Thought They care

Now I  know it's just stares

World at large I'm speaking too 

Honestly maybe  you 

Ain't even in a booth

Reason I can speak the truth 

Overcoming uh past hear the lie in that 

Y u think I'm so trash 

Yea I know Trash facts 

Insecure bout being black

Hear my story it's a laugh 

You know i never knew 

I  have power over my life 

Sometimes I need a reminder

Poison every lyric  

Get it off my spirit

Yeah I'm trying to bear it 

Can't even hear it 

Get me mad 

That Rare ish 

Yea i'm calm

I turn up quick

Present time  too old

Did math scape show

Drownin sea woes 

Caught between the road  

Didn't  lived by a code

I don't think of these as woes 

Now tryna  fix a show 13 run we seasonal

Thinking hard brain explode

Got no time to unload

Got too much a workload

Had a plan it  blowed

Over stress it shows 

Make a list only pros

I'm too hard on myself 

I seek perfection in myself and in others

Overly critical a burden 

I want change change

Easier said than done 

Words to describe my life  

Remember a knife

Had it to my face 

Thought it my last day 

Maybe because she mad

Probably my joke in class

Wish I could forget everything

I got a good   memory

Don't wanna remember things can't  accept just anything

Tragedy of a  past 

Labeled  outcast

Never seem to finish task 

Despair my glass

Another day failed class

Pe never pass 

Future where I wanna be why you try to fawn on me 

Accused of being a wanna be 

Huh what  you want from me 

You know I'm too hard on myself 

More than anyone  should be

I'm my worst critic 

I should  be a cheerleader for myself 

I guess I  never learned to love my self

Knowing that 

Trying to fix that

The real battle  to move forward 

Stead of letting my past drag me down like it has for so long 

Now  I know I know I have power 

Power over my life Power over my fate

I can change my life 

For the better a brighter future a better tomorrow 

I didn't know I had power   power over my life 

Power over my future

Power to forgive

Forgive myself 

Instead of hurt

I'm tired of hurting myself 

When your  so used to  hurt

You think there's nothing else 

It's sounds crazy 

Its like It's like I thought there was no other way 

I never knew I could better myself 

I never knew  it was an option

I'm coming to terms with it 

It's opened my eyes I see things in a different light I just want to hold on to it 

Wish you could live through my shoes 

See the  things I've gone through

how I see life unlike u

No difference between us two 

You could tell we the same 

All we really want is change

Better not think of  its pain

That's what  drove me insane

I will never ever  take ur Lane

I'm smiling even in the rain

It's deeply rooted in my brain

I don't even how to explain 

Positive on a crowded train 

That's how you know I'm  tryna change

Saw the error of all my ways 

I could see that ur not phased 

New chapter uh yeah my page 

Living life in a different way 

Stacking money all in this safe 

Got no time to be playing games

Tell me how it feel to change

Honestly I   want the same

Can't won't stay the  same 

Happiness ain't from a chain came from right inside 

Yes yes  I am that guy 

Honestly I ain't gonna lie 

So sad you gotta die  remember all the times

Stuff them house of lies 

Never gonna go  inside

Actually   burn my pride 

Comfortable getting denied

See me yea  living life know you gotta pay the price 

Honestly forget a price

I'm gon go change a life

Yeah yeah I can't be that nice 

Yeah yeah see the change in life

Yeah yeah it's amazing right

You know i don't have a name for this yet

I dont know what to call it

Somethijng easy to remmeber like really easy

Hmm ahh i got it call itepisode one