Heal Myself (Radio Edit) Lyrics

When the doctors can't do nothing

But add pills to yo shelf

Understand you can heal yourself

When all that pain got you numb

And you can't feel yourself

Understand you gotta heal yourself

When the world lying to you

Just keep it real yourself

And understand you can heal yourself

When you hit rock bottom

And wanna kill your self

Don't give up you can heal yourself

So many weapons formed

So much damage from the storms

But it ain't no time to mourn

Lord knows I'm tired

But I ain't got the time to yawn

Finding pieces of my broken heart

That I ain't know was torn

I had to heal myself

These verses like Neosporin

And who the h*** said

It was darkest before dawn

Fatigued but I can't sleep

I'm up before my alarm

Balancing this weight on my shoulders

With both my arms

Tell my friends I can't come over

It's too much over overcome

Speaking life into myself

The pain rolling off tongue

Ironically I can't feel it

Orajel got my numb

Ain't nobody love me better

I'm feeling like Chaka Khan

Walaikum salam

Face in my palms

Don't let the sun kill yo grass

Cuz you ain't watering yo lawn

I'm indebted to so many

Forever we share a bond

I know what I've became

But what more could I become

Lost my dad, then my mom

Three uncles, and my cousin

But ain't no days off

I'm a father and a husband

Chanta text me all the time

To check my mental health

So does Ashley and Amanda

When I'm feeling by myself

Somehow, I'm still feeling by myself

So I just pray

Chasza hit my line

Just to ask me if I'm straight

Just got off the phone Nick

And I got messages from Tre

Me and Rick cried together

Cuz we aint know the words to say

I built strength off this analysis

Kevin checked on me

But he couldn't make the funeral

Cuz he was on dialysis

I told him take care of yourself

I understand that

A month later, heard some good news

He getting a transplant

First time I felt joy in a while, tried to relax

He told me during surgery

Both his lungs collapsed

Despite all the obstacles

He finally got released

But he on oxygen

Until his lungs get better

Approximately, a month later

I texted him on his birthday

A couple months after that

He died in his birth place

Honestly I'm scared

All those prayers that I said

And the ones I prayed for the most

The ones that end up dead

Ham committed suicide

Lay committed suicide

I'm trying to understand it all

And keep my mind purified

I hate to be dramatic

But the s*** been so traumatic

I had to heal myself

These verses prophylactics

I said all that to say this

Every time you play this

I'm managing my pain from yo playlist

I said all that to say this

Every time you play this

I'm managing my pain from yo playlist

When the doctors can't do nothing

But add pills to yo shelf

Understand You can heal yourself

When all that pain got you numb

And you can't feel yourself

Understand you gotta heal yourself

When the world lying to you

Just keep it real yourself

And understand you can heal yourself

When you hit rock bottom

And wanna kill your self

Don't give up you can heal yourself