Plague of Sadness Lyrics

It’s like a constant circle everyday around my life

No matter what I try to fix it seems that things won’t be alright

I got a million fucking problems which has labeled me as a mental case

Since the day I’ve touched the booze they’ve lead me falling from Heaven’s grace!

Landing me in an uncertain world where everything is full of sorrow

And the pain that stands before me turns my psyche into hollow

Wishing it will go away so I can get through another week

Without the bullshit riding beside it, laughing as I’m growing weak!

Fucking fed up with these issues I keep remembering from the past

When my best friend suddenly died I knew I was heading towards a relapse!

Thinking about some ways where I could finally end it all

And hopefully find a fucking purpose that will lift me from this fall

But in order to complete my wish I have to sign the dotted line

So that the Devil can take my soul and let it rot beneath the fire!

You can tell that the plague is near when the tears come down the sky

As I start to fucking choose rather if I wanna die!

I wish there was something in this world that will help me try to ease my pain

Looking in the mirror at my reflection, I can’t even stand the sight of me!

Overwhelmed with so much stress and the hatred starts to take its toll

In every fucking inch of what’s left of my soul to the point I’ve finally realized I’ve lost control!

When I look into the mirror just to see my own reflection

The Reaper is lurking right behind me with a sinister expression!

I’m ready to take some action as I’m loading up the fucking glock

Pressed it against my temple as I’m staring towards the clock!

Overwhelmed from paranoia I couldn’t bare the stress

As my knees are starting to buckle and my face was soaked in sweat!

But not only was I scared it was just the thought of the aftermath

And what the chances are will be if I chose to walk this path

Since the day I’ve chose this music shit I’ve sacrificed so many things

That I thought it was for the greater good, but lead me with broken wings

Losing friends from left to right, my family wished I was dead

For not having the perfect son that they were wishing they had!

Heartbroken with depression fucking fed up with this world

How can something be so beautiful, can be awfully fucking cruel!

So this is my final chapter before I pull this goddamn trigger

And what leads me towards the afterlife could hopefully be much better!

I wish there was something in this world that will help me try to ease my pain

Looking in the mirror at my reflection, I can’t even stand the sight of me!

Overwhelmed with so much stress and the hatred starts to take its toll

In every fucking inch of what’s left of my soul to the point I’ve finally realized I’ve lost control!