Not the Same Lyrics

If they ask me

"I'll be straight"

Even though the feeling's strange

Didn't make it yet, but like LaRussell said

"It's not the same"

Learning how to fake it

Even when I feel that I'm insane

Said a lot of all that stressing

Came from being in my way

Thankful for the blessings

And the fact I'm here today

But I'm hateful to myself

And for the things I couldn't change

Never gonna hate

Always felt this life was great

Then I started seeing faces

Leaving quicker than they change

Only thing I'm seeing now

Is that smile on your face

And I think about how I really wanna change

If I had it all now, could I be the saving grace?

Could I take away the stress and keep that smile on your face?

I know who your family is

You don't ever make mistakes

Everybody scared of you

I think you're scared because I ain't

Since we're on the topic

I ain't sleep in seven days

Can't nobody love you like me

I don't wanna go away

All I ever really wanted was for you to stay the same

You're the only one I see

Why you play me like a game?

All the feelings that you fear

And the ones you lock away

All the feelings that you feel

That you throwing in my face

I ain't nonchalant

It's maturity

I can tell you love me

With all certainty

But why you act like what you're doing now isn't hurtin' me?

Silent treatment

I'm impatient with you

Now you're irking me

Everything you doing, deep down, is because of me

Try to take you up with me

But why you playing dumb with me?

All you do is run

All I give you is my loyalty

All I see is bitter bitches

Misery loves company

Putting all my trust in you

Cause you're a one of one to me

Every time we fuck

I keep going when you come for me

You ain't hearing me

And you're giving me no reason

That should spill the tea

All alone and I'm dying slow

Please don't switch on me

I just know I'm sorry

Even though it isn't all on me

Maybe I'm a problem

And the one who's been hurting me

I just wish you would see

What you're doing to me

And what you're putting me through