September 1st Lyrics

Light and nature in the picture

Big smiles and higher chests

You were two feet behind me

I was short and I was twelve

And I can still hear your applauses

Of every time that I did right

And to stay up in that cloud

I would tear my skin and bone apart

Wish I had been swallowed by that sun

Instead that by this harm

I'm crawling on a floor of broken glass

Wish I knew the wicked tricks of time

I'd still be your shiny star

I'd still be the only walker in your land

What is a grown up

If not a burnout

If not a burden

In your eyes?

Everything that raises falls

And you enjoyed every feet down

"Now look at all those young girls,

You could never do like that"

And when well silenced and buried

I still tried to reach to you

But you had risen your head up

Somewhere so high I couldn't fly to

Wish I had been swallowed by that sun

Instead that by this harm

I'm crawling on a floor of broken glass

Wish I knew the wicked tricks of time

I'd still be your shiny star

I'd still be the only walker in your land

What is a grown up

If not a burnout

If not a burden

In your eyes?

You said I got in on my own

But you pushed me in and locked the door

Found the girls you had before

Shaky hands begging on the floor

And vicious circles, pointy edges

For the healing of their scars

Diary pages, songs and verses

For the years they can't take back

Picking up all their tapestry you broke

You were the grown up here

You should've known

Now I mostly feel sorry for myself

'Cause in two years you won't even remember my name

What is a grown up

If not a burnout

If not a burden

In your eyes…?