autopilot Lyrics

Verse:

I think I might’ve missed my exit

When I turned twenty-five

All my friends are starting families

While I’m just starting therapy online

I’ll spend the hour pretending I’m fine

If I could muscle up the energy

I’d answer every unread text

Make solid plans I’m good to keep,

Go out and try to feel something

But then I’d have to leave my bed

Pre Chorus:

And I’ve got this toxic trait making me believe

No one’s ever really loved me

Shit

Chorus:

Oh man, guess I’ve been running in circles again

Seems like everyone else has got it all figured out

Close my eyes and I scream

God, I hate being me

And it hurts to admit I’m too broken to fix

I’m on autopilot

Verse:

Maybe tomorrow I’ll be better

Evict the critics in my head

Catch up on water, get some sleep,

Be gentle with the words I speak

I used to be my own best friend

Is it too late to make amends

Chorus:

Oh man, guess I’ve been running in circles again

Seems like everyone else has got it all figured out

Close my eyes and I scream

God, I hate being me

And it hurts to admit I’m too broken to fix

I’m on autopilot

Outro:

If New York’s sinking underwater in a year

Does it even really matter how I feel

I wish someone would come take the wheel

I’ll complain, but then I stay the same

Cause I’m drawn by a hand that leaves flaws in design

Carved anxiety deep in the mold of my life

I’m afraid to be loved, terrified I’ll be left behind

I’m doing my best to survive

I’m doing my best