Its me versus my emotions I know this shit is wild

I use to do it a lot now I barely even smile

I done been through some thangs I can't explain it right now

Cause my heart is experiencing some changes right now

This time of the year be the strangest sometimes

And it got me steady wishing that my mama was alive

Crazy when she passed away I couldn't even cry

And I couldnt even focus a lot was running through my mind

A lot was running through my mind

We dont know how my mama died

They like d will boy you done changed

Every since yo mama died you ain't been the same

But they dont know my pain

I don't give a fuck and I dont feel ashamed

I use to make myself the blame

Almost lost my mind I damn near went insane

I cut some people off wanted to change my last name

But that wouldnt make a difference they blood running through my veins

And its out of my control

God the one that did it so I gotta let it go

Whats done in the dark will eventually expose

I done lost a lot of people this one hurt me to my soul

It's hard to explain it

If I try to do it youll say it is the strangest

Now you see why Im so angry

Cause I need answers me not knowing man that aint it

Name of the doctor that she had

They said he didnt exist he never worked there in the past

But thats the name they gave us and I know that for a fact

Should knew something was up it was too many red flags