Huge Drama Lyrics

This is a huge drama

You said you wanted this

You said you wanted this

You said you wanted this

I have a natural gift of humor but when I can't carry this gift

I feel shut down and useless

Muse my list of sufferings I carry within my soul

Cause when I care too much, it drowns and buries me in this sorrow

When I'm building up the bridges, they burn down

I reminisce too much of the friendships that I had, it drowns

Me in regret and resentment

Wishing I could blast to the past, an only child losing his friends

It's honestly a vicious cycle

I tell myself I'm used to abandonment, I'm numb to the pain

But time flies by too quick, I'm stuck on a train

The metra of a melancholy heart I carry within

The pain prospers as it derails off my disdain

Of success from other people that compare to my age

Wondering if I'm doing wrong or if there are really better days

That are coming up in my life, rising up like a bird

I pray that angels carry me on my adventure on this earth

Been given negativity gene from my own nativity

The wings that carry me are Icarus and melting with ease

Talents feeling talentless when there is no exercise

Gotta realize what you have before it synthesize into regret

From not pushing hard and staying in bed

Laying down in comfort while people around you moving ahead

I'm not satisfied with my life

Might just drop it and quit

Used to pray to God daily that I wake up dead

But I'm not finished

Hate the mindset that bring me down

But come to terms with the mindset

That it always turns against you and what you build

So just keep your back straight, yeah

It burns and burns, corrosiveness on the soul

But always know that the highs come with the lows

Everyone can relate

It's been 21 years with no relationships

And I'm happy in my yacht with no goddamn bitch

Fearsome Filipino used to wish I was black

Because I thought being cool was being popular

Now my skin dark as fuck cause it's the summer

Wishing for a new race made me feel so much dumber

I see the F1, ah Filipino a first

I'm the Underwood, mm, America first

El Presidente is a creme de la creme

A Lewinsky spill is a creme de la cum

Calling up Zelinsky, wonder if drink done

Call the Kremlin, we made a white Russian

Call the Kremlin, we made a white Russian