THESE THOUGHTS Lyrics

Everybody that I know is going mental

Push the pedal Off the road

I'm a dead one

Twenty bucks and now I'm stoned

Where my head go?

Tell me what do I control

My dads geppetto

Cause I'm a puppet of a boy, yah

And I was wishing on a star to be reborn, yah

And I was fishing for a reason to be cordial

But I ain't living off of wishes all my hopes gone

And I been going mental

I been Sitting in this room like it's a jail cell

And I was thinking maybe life just was a dead end

Cause suicide was on the line but now I'm stuck here

Now I'm stuck here

Thinking of a million ways

I can see my name in lights

In the ground or a stage

And I'm the oldest

I'm responsible for paving the way

But I've been blinded by my sorrows

Put me up in a cage

So tell me what you want when You hit my line

No one ever calls til they need me

Always looking up

But it's a long way down

I'm worried bout the ones who believe me

Tell me that I'm more than these thoughts right now

Tell me that the world's gonna see me

I'm scared of all the things that this pen writes down

I'm scared that these thoughts trying kill me

These thoughts are trying to kill me

And maybe I'm a nobody

Every thought I think is dead

Now I'm Feeling like a cold body

My words sting

I got no hobbies

I ain't ate in several days

Now I'm looking like I'm no body

Death threats

That's that old body

Chose a better way I guess

Gave that old body legs

Now he staring down the barrel

Call him dead body

That's a metaphor for death

Now he's haunting all my steps

These thoughts got me feeling a way

Keep me down

keep me low

Like I'm stuck in cage

(I know)

These lies always stuck in the way

And I been listening to me

So I believe what I say

(Should I go?)

A question that I ask everyday

Cause I'd be lying if I said

I wasn't stuck in maze

(With no hope)

To feeling like I'm stuck in a race

We count down

On the go I'm a number in place

(Here I go)

And now I got the gun in my face

Slow it down

Take a breathe

Now I'm upping the stakes

(Should I go)

Is life really worth what they say

Cause in my mind

I get tired of the breathe that I take

(Please don't go)

I'm fighting everyday for a change

I wish that I could see this life with something more than disdain

(I need hope)

I'm burdened by mistakes that I've made

I waking up to see reality was blurred in a dream

So tell me what you want when You hit my line

No one ever calls til they need me

Always looking up

But it's a long way down

I'm worried bout the ones who believe me

Tell me that I'm more than these thoughts right now

Tell me that the world's gonna see me

I'm scared of all the things that this pen writes down

I'm scared that these thoughts trying kill me

These thoughts are trying to kill me

So tell me what you want when You hit my line

No one ever calls til they need me

Always looking up

But it's a long way down

I'm worried bout the ones who believe me

Tell me that I'm more than these thoughts right now

Tell me that the world's gonna see me

I'm scared of all the things that this pen writes down

I'm scared that these thoughts trying kill me

These thoughts are trying to kill me