Closed Door Lyrics

Looking in this mirror, I reflect

Trynna see it clearer, trynna figure out the next

Step, will my peers ever give me my respect?

Slept with my fears, demons never leave my bed

Kept in the tears, I been trapped in my head

Never really here, cause I'm way too far ahead

Swear I always hear all them voices from the dead

Got no time to rest, I'm too busy chasing checks

I ain't worried bout what's next

It's gon come eventually

With the life I live, that shit was meant to be

I could never care about the enemy

I'm just out here trynna find serenity

But that's just how it goes

Behind closed doors

Feelings get exposed, I get to my low

Tell me why they ain't never showed us how to deal with no love

And when I get it, how do I still feel alone?

Wish I woulda known

All of this before

I became a soul

I never woulda chose

This typa life for me, Ever since I'd think

Will this pain ever come to a close?

Prolly not

Give it all I got

See em at the top, at the bottom they gon rot

Gotta show my son not to ever love no thot

You may think she the one, but I promise that she not

Always watch your back, you'll be surprised who switching

Then when shit get on the map, you'll be surprised who hit you

Aye Sev, remember me? Cmon let's take a picture

Boy you wasn't in the deep, I wasn't hanging with ya

Lil momma tried to leave me

Cause she caught me in the sheets, with another she

It ain't what it seemed, she can never be what you're to me

It's just what I need for my self esteem

She call me mean

Only if she felt what I mean, she won't ask a thing

Only if she knew that a ring wouldn't solve it all

It's all my fault

Want me make it rain, imma let it fall

For this life of fame, she gon risk it all

But that's just how it goes

Behind closed doors

Feelings get exposed, I get to my low

Tell me why they ain't never showed us how to deal with no love

And when I get it, how do I still feel alone?

Wish I woulda known

All of this before

I became a soul

I never woulda chose

This typa life for me, Ever since I'd think

Will this pain ever come to a close?