Supposed To Be Lyrics

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

As I sit there contemplating

While constantly debating within myself

Is too aggravating

Posted all alone

By myself

Feeling devastated

Agitated

Girl it's three am

I'm so tired of waiting

Thinking to myself

As Im pouring up this liquor

She ain't picking up her phone

Declining much quicker

She texted me that

She need some time on her own

Couldn't say anything else

Without leaving a hole

Believe me you're not leaving me whole

Trust me

I've been peeped the situation

I done seen it before

She gon' do what she wants

Since I won't leave her alone

And her retort

Is just to tell me i'm wrong

Then she tell me she grown

Ever since her relevance

Was evident

Girl I never flinched

I never thought about disrespecting

Because I wanted this

Fairytale life and you were my princess

Was saving every feeling

Hoping you would gain interest

But

No this out how its supposed to be

Always been about you

But lately you've been acting brand new

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

I don't want to feel this way

After everything we have been through

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

Even a blind man sees

Just how funny you've been making your moves

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

And I don't want to think this way

But lately I been feeling it's true

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

Lonely nights without you close

Taking shots with all my demons

With me leading the toast

Me just drunk texting

And you leaving me ghost

It's inconvenient

How you seem to just leave

When I need you most

Still I wake up reaching

But you not next to me sleep

There is no warmth from your pillow

Depression hitting me deep

I just rolled up me rello

And realized what I've reaped

Been paralyzed by the pain

And agonizing defeat

That was my biggest fear

But I guess that's on me

I can only blame myself

For all the pain it's caused me

But you keep running through my mind

And it's just too exhausting

And still I hold onto the pain

No matter what it cost me

So when you walked right out that door

Then you facing them repercussions

I aint fussing

I ain't fighting

Or having no deep discussions

Til the early morning

Got all your things packed right outside

That the open door

I want it gone this morning

No this out how its supposed to be

Always been about you

But lately you've been acting brand new

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

I don't want to feel this way

After everything we have been through

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

Even a blind man sees

Just how funny you've been making your moves

No this ain't how it's supposed to be

And I don't want to think this way

But lately I been feeling it's true

No this ain't how it's supposed to be