Telephone Operator Lyrics

I posses a wound that'll never heal but I learned to cope

The most devastating thing happened to me

And I turned the anger and the rage into inspiration to better myself as I grow

It taught me to heal from other situations and it brought me hope

Like Drake said "sometimes forgiveness is a lonely road" so

I'm still learning to forgive but I can't forget

I've forgiven some, still working on the rest

I've been writing ever since then now my pen game's something to respect

Operator, she gotta know that she gon needa grab herself

Cause she gon try to get rid of me a couple times tryna stab herself

I'm tryna reach her, just to tell her that she just needa love herself

Cause I know that it's hard now but it gets better

She just has trust God and trust herself

Yeah

I know I owe her an apology

Should've loved her more but I couldn't

She lost herself, I hated her for it, regrettably

She lost herself unwillingly though

Her brother was the problem he never afforded her

It's sad because he treated her so partially

Never had a say, they borrowed her like on a chartered fee

Three up against one is so unfair, they disregarded her

It's so unfortunate, I mean, she gotta be

Thinking this the real reason for my anxiety

Luckily I'm confident, otherwise, I'd be doubting me

All because he bullied her so she became so fearful

She was worried, she was done in its entirety

Lost my grandparents and that just added to the variety of

Reasons why I'm angsty all the time it's undeniably the

Most traumatic shit and then he had the audacity to

Quiet her by telling her to stop crying about it, like who does that shit?

So when I say I came up from the dirt

I mean I done blossomed throughout the crop dying, not lying

Been the truth, just needed to stop trying to convince everybody else when I know myself

I never cared to share the storyline, well now it's story time

My growing pains are teaching me transparency, thinking my story might

Fall on the ears of those thinking, "fuck, is this story mine?"

I thought I didn't have abandonment issues, but now I think I do

I always knew I was messed up, I really think I knew

I mean I thought I knew

But now I pay more attention to little bad habits and shit I casually do

As I get older, I realize all that's really wrong with me

All cause of the shit I went through growing up that's haunting me

Yeah I got through everything but why is it still costing me?

Dauntingly just taunted me, I made it out exhaustingly

But now I got these issues, scars and wounds

These thoughts and all these moods

From bicycle bruise to getting locked and beaten in a room with a

Plastic pipe that felt like galvanized pipes cause the

Way she bled, you'd think they're stabs from a knife

Anyway, she moved around a lot

Her mom had her young, was still in college

She sent her to her dad's house, where she wasn't acknowledged

And the stepmom did not want her around

She stayed with an aunt and hated it but ain't say it aloud

A whole bunch of back and forth

Why would you put a kid through that like it was all her fault?

That shit was cruel cause obviously you forgave him if you stayed with him

You wanna take it out on somebody, should've given the blame to him

Instead, you took it out on her and she grew up with many demons that she made within

Way too much trauma just remained within

Too scared to tell her mom, so she kept it in