Breakthrough Lyrics

I been working on

Emotional maturity

Financial security

Still got time to murder beats

You probably never heard of me

Had to get ahead of this depression I been hurdling

Had to find some clarity this therapy like Claritin

I been living my life on my own terms

Focused on myself and on the long term

I'm done giving love without no loan terms

Kept my heart too open it's a gift but a lonely curse yeah

Maybe there's love for me somewhere out there in the multiverse

Variations of past lovers that's deserve to get traversed

But these days I put myself first

Used to sip on casual flings just to quench the thirst

Now I got a little drive like a chauffeur

Saw a therapist he helped me find a road to closure

Building up my credit little steps since I been sober

Still dealing with stress but getting better with composure

Used to get defensive over criticism

Used to just deflect the confrontation into cynicism

I could not accept the confirmation of how I was living

Stuck feeling insecure without the proper motivation

Witnessing success of all my peers while I was stagnant

Codependent to all of my exes like an addict

Put the blame on them when they left cuz they couldn't stand it

Took some time to self reflect to finally understand shit

I was sleeping in the bed I made

Insecurities engrained since I was in the 7th grade

Subconsciously I took the blame the day my father walked away

A lot more changed on that adoption day than just a name

It turned me to a walking ticking time bomb

Tripping off the spice opened up my mind's blind spot

Repressed depression took possession over my thoughts

Everyday emotions were on shuffle like an iPod

10 years a struggle looking back like where's the time gone

10 years in limbo I felt like it's all just time lost

5 years sober guess I'm not as bad as I thought

Almost jumped ship and drank Jack when she left me

Rose above I still ain't drank jack since I went clean

Right now I'm the best me, money I'm investing

Counting all my blessings, continue progressing

Finally addressing subconscious oppression

This shit like a chess game and I'm playing in the end game

I been getting money yeah I'm all about my check, mate