heroine Lyrics

I'm falling

I'm falling again

It's the Dope Show that I'm starring in

Oh no, not again

Battle-tested, but it's hard to win

Broke the stitches upon my skin

I lost

Too much of a cost

Not much that I spend

Courtesy of my friends

It's my fault

Habits, behavior-patterns. I had to sustain some balance

It actually made me crash and go back to the same disastrous

Things that I promised in the past would remain in caskets

What a revival. I grabbed a shovel and dug up the bodies

Under the piles of dirt. They lay in the attic

I hid them more than the truth of this chain-reaction

I look you in the face and wrap it. But, just know that I'll dangle backwards

I'm straight embarrassed & strangled by shame and half of it's

I'm isolated. Tryna' stay in

Touch with my family-tree

I lie awake and

Lie to fake that I'm happy

Chain-smoke until the day's over

Pray no one knows I ain't sober

Tryna' work with a faint motor

I've been hurt and ashamed. Closer

To my loved-ones I want to be. I've been stuck in this dungeon

With monsters that keep me company

Momma, why would you run from me

Now I sleep with your ashes inside my pillow

Right under these ugly dreams. I could fuckin' scream

I'm a fiend for disaster because it seems nothing keeps

Sadness from touching me. I relapse when the love is bleak

I collapse and pick up the phone just to have my Grandmother speak

Only that is the drug I seek

But, this hero's lacking his heroine

A bag full of heroin is so bad a comparison

I need you now more than ever

I'm isolated. Tryna' stay in

Touch with my family-tree

I lie awake and

Lie to fake that I'm happy

I'm falling

I'm falling