My First Semester Lyrics

It was a summer to remember

But a fall to make me gag

I'm not who I always thought I'd be back then

It's hard to think you're something

When nothing's all you've been

Treat yourself like shit like high school friends once did

But living in the past is not a healthy place to be

It's hard to find yourself in things you wish you hadn't seen

I'm falling asleep again

To sounds of an old box fan

I'm anxious inside my head cause

The echoes from my youth

Ring out through this empty room

I recall my first semester

As the few times I cried

In front of my mom since grandma died one night

It was seven years of torture

I couldn't seem weak

In front of those who expect perfection from me

It's hard to hear I love you from those that I hold close

It doesn't seem to matter when I tend to need it most

I'm falling asleep again

To sounds of an old box fan

I'm anxious inside my head cause

The echoes from my youth

Ring out through this empty room

It's hard to accept myself

When I can't even ask for help

Assume there's just no one else who

Could see through these eyes

I'll just take my own side this time

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

How things end up with you and me

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I think I need to get some sleep

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

How things end up with you and me

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I think I need to get some

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

How things end up with you and me

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I think I need to get some sleep

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

How things end up with you and me

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I think I need some fucking sleep