VERITAS Lyrics

I keep asking stupid questions

Getting smarter answers

Made some plans

Some hours went

And then I called and canceled

Told my friends I'm working on myself

Been like a constant canvas

So it's every time that we go out

I'm not a constant cancer

I'm controversial

In a sense I'm like real double standard

I'm a fan of saying something real

Amongst the fake and scamming

But still I fail to visualize my own emotion's damage

So I take it out on those I love

Abandon all my manners

My legendary rants on average

Get shut down by Cameron

And my candles burning

Both my ends are far beyond repairing

I'm really scared one day I turn on forward facing cameras

Just to see that truthfully

I grew up to be both my parents

And yes

I'm aware of hatred in myself

I wait for change

But ADD

Made me impatient with myself

21 I end up in that inpatient with myself

And crisis center workers saw me with that pain I had around

I still remember feeling like I was too good to be in hell

Last September when I look in your face and told you well

I'm not okay but that's okay

And I don't need your fucking help

And just the other day

I did the same

And still I Fucking felt

Like I was right

And I wasn't

But was too proud to admit it

Every night

shrugging off

the thoughts that's keeping me from sleeping

I was off

20 shots

The night we talk and got me weeping

Bout that bitch who took my heart

I took her time so now we even

I ain't right

But my wrongs had left me stronger than I seem

At least that's what I tell myself when I get caught up in my dream

Since a teen

I was sure I wouldn't make it to 18

Now in my 20s I do struggle to figure out what it means

That I'm still living

In the present

But this presence still been aiming

At my soul and all I know is I'm not sure of who I'm saving

Me or you

I'll tell the truth

That back when I was Trynna end it

Only thing that kept me going was not knowing how you'd take it

So I just

Told myself to not let all that shit effect you

Told me

"keep me from that bottle"

then I held that shit against you

And for months

Told myself ain't nobody know what you been through

Homie told me don't you know we doing all this protect you

From yourself

Cause you don't

Seem to understand the damage

That you doing

To yourself

And to all your fucking family

Been around

Long enough to say

That substance doesn't scare me

But what does is waking up as someone else

And fucking clearly I am

I keep asking stupid questions

Getting smarter answers

Made some plans

Some hours went

And then I called and canceled

Told my friends I'm working on myself

Been like a constant canvas

So it's every time that we go out

I'm not a constant cancer

I'm controversial

In a sense I'm like real double standard

I'm a fan of saying something real

Amongst the fake and scamming

But still I fail to visualize my own emotions damage

So I take it out on those I love

Fuck

So I take it out on those I love

Fuck