Different Song Lyrics

This is for my firstborn, man I hope you hear this

Promise you my all ,never to put you through, what I had to deal with

Promise to never leave you so I can go out drinking

And have your mom lie to you, say "I'll be back in a minute"

Never put you through predicament, that's past your limits

And if it's my fault, be a man will never hesitate to admit it

Promise to be faithful to your mother, but even with these rainbows everywhere

It's hard to see your true colors. Colorblind the most beautiful things

that are in life. We worried about the luxuries we don't

have. Instead of the ones in plain sight

Should I die today? Seems like the night. Should I pray or should I deny

Kindness taken for weakness, why is this world so harsh

Wanna be an asshole, wasn't raised with that kind of heart

Promise my godfather, never let this world tear me apart

But so many pieces of me spread throughout the dark

Sometimes I see that silver lining and it starts to dim

Any hopes and dreams seems like a fairy tale that never ends

So if I chase after mine, am I playing pretend? I guess me, my reality will never make amends

God damn. Now it seems like you're slave to the pain

No matter how hard I try, man I've never seem to gain

But when that beat comes up, man it's a different song

Gotta stay strong, man I gotta stay strong as I grow

Quicker to judge what you don't see. Magician my emotions, have your eyes deceived

The only trap house I know is the one in my dreams

Got that dope shit, on dope shit but I'm the fiend

Contemplated suicide, yeah i had those thoughts

Rope tied and everything and I almost jumped

Back in my mind, I hear my angel yelling

Saying what the fuck you doing boy? Do you know what hell is

I told I'm living it, god damn it can't you see

I can't sleep, I only eat, I can't even fucking breathe

I just wanna maintain, I just want inner peace

Just leave me alone, be gone man, just let me be

Simply the fact, I've been away from rap

Cause I lost my path, for a bitch that didn't love me back

So that's that, tell them the hell spawned is back

With this halo attached, with that fire, you flamed

At me boy, I'll flame you right back

So don't expect that nice guy, when I come by

For that high five, cause I feel low

And that's a part of me you'll never know

And that's the way I have to grow

With my heart a little cold, searching for my pot of gold

But I'll never sell my soul

And I'm tired of these false accusations

Quick to point the finger at me, without knowing the full situation

So go ahead, money on my head, that's what I'm used to

Suffocate me for how I carry myself, like a noose do

Tired of the bullshit, cause I speak the real

Never have to question who I am, or what's the deal

If you don't like it, I can give a fuck how you feel

Stay me steady, with the shot I kill

But it seems like you're slave to the pain

No matter how I try, man, I never see the gain

But when that beat comes on, man, it's a different song

Gotta stay strong, man, I gotta stay strong, as I grow