Composure Lyrics

As you're driving us down seventeenth and I 

Don't say a word cause I can't even breathe as I'm

Watching you getting mad, begging me to be

Honest, I want to but honestly 

I feel so small sitting there next to you

You do the opposite of what I expect you to

And I don't fight fair, make you think I don't care

Because I do, more than I want to

And you don't judge me

The way I do

And you probably could love me right

If I could learn to let you

Oh oh, why do I do it?

Terrified, messy and human

Tried to believe that love was overrated

But I think I'd want if it I wasn't so jaded 

I want you to know me

You don't like when I hold back the whole me

And in this moment what would hurt me more?

Losing you or my composure 

There's no risk, there's no mess if you're not vulnerable

You don't fall, you just hold your false sense of control

But there's no love there and I wanna go where

I can just hold you and not hold it all together

Hold it together

Oh oh, why do I do it?

Terrified, messy and human

Tried to believe that love was overrated

But I think I'd want if it I wasn't so jaded 

I want you to know me

You don't like when I hold back the whole me

And in this moment what would hurt me more?

Losing you or my composure 

You don't judge me

The way I do

And I would cause a scene with all this honesty if I got to keep you

Oh oh, why do I do it

Aren't we all messy and human

Tried to believe that love was overrated 

Yeah it's a risk but baby, I wanna take it 

'Cause I want you to know me

Break down and let you hold me

In this moment knowing someone's worth

Losing my composure

If I spell it all out

Let you in the mess

How sure am I you'll catch me?

'Cause I'm out on the ledge now

Can't mess this up, no

You matter too much

You got me so uncomfortable the way you love me for me

Like it's possible for us to change the story

'Cause I'm good in the right light

But no one loves the bad side like you

It's a risk but baby

I wanna take it, yeah