everything I am Lyrics

I see myself

Becoming better day by day

Getting closer to what I said

That I would get

I see myself

Slowly rising on my way

And while I'm getting impatient of getting there

I know everything will be okay

So yeah so what I'm gonna do is give everything I have

And everything I ever was to achieve what I wanna be

But do you really think it's fun, do you think I've never wanted

To at last finally give up when I ain't nothing but crying

All alone in my bed at night? I have

I said I would do anything and I promised I would do it

So I can't do anything else I will either die or make it

I will either make it or die and I've wanted so many times

To back out and lay aside and return to the days I had

But I, I know the pain of the regrets

That slowly eat you up at night when you're fifty

And you know you wasted your life

So I put everything I am

Everything I am

I will probably die alone, and I'm prolly gonna die soon

Muttering my lonely tones a last time before they fade out

And I'm okay with that, just another way to stand out

As if I ever thought I was anything like the rest of you

I only ever wanted to be like the other kids

To be friends with the cooler kids, to be something

Anything else than the weird kid, the left apart during playtime

That I only ever was, I only ever wanted to be liked

I never was, I only ever was the weird

Kid left apart that nobody cares about

And there were times I was so sad I just wanted it all to end

At last, at last

And then I saw what the cool kids and the others

What all the normal kids became, what I was trying to become

And I became so fucking grateful I hadn't ever been like that

So now I put everything I am

Everything I am

So I'm doing as well as I can, I'm putting everything I have

I'm putting everything I am, to not end up like the others

To not end up in a decade with the glorified lifestyle

Of knowing I've wasted it all, of having nothing to live for

Like I had, I'm putting everything I have

And I won't stop until I die, or until I make it, and then I'll die

And until then I'll try again, and again, and again

No matter how many times I fail, because I'll try again

And I won't stop until I die

'Cause I put everything I am

Everything I am