Zoned Out Lyrics

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I was thinking bout my life when i zoned out

In that state i was lost in my world wow

had to see a therapist then i found out i been walking round the same shit, need a new route

getting lost in my thoughts ain't no way out

all my feelings they be gone, all my dreams lost

all my goals all my visions getting blurred out, locked out from my own house like an outcast

I still think i need some new eyes after what I've seen, PTSD messing with my mind, tryna deal with it

been through lotta therapies and now I'm getting sick of it, I'm sick of this, can't even close my eyes when i go to sleep

and it's worse people don't see a bit of what i feel

people think I'm getting better huh? Cos i keep it in

gradually I'm getting worse, daily it is what it is but now I'm sick of hiding my feelings i gotta keep it real

my mental health is steady declining i hope you're hearing me, I'm drowning in my pain and emotions and my anxiety, I'm hiding lotta feelings inside me and they all killing me, I'm scared to admit it but in the end it's only hurting me

and everytime i think of it i get these memories when everything was going really fine without the suffering

I'm sipping from a bottle tryna forget my reality

addiction is a friend of me, depression is my enemy, damn i still hate my stupid ex cos i cannot forget

all the things she did still hurts me and i cannot pretend, all the things she did to me, the way she lied to me, the way she made me feel so completed and then she broke me again

every night i go to bed with many thoughts in my head

looking out through my window wishing everything could end, then i close my eyes and drift off into nightmares, the ghosts are here again they're smiling yeah cos i made them my friends

you won't understand me, you won't understand it

you won't understand how I'm feeling because you're not me, you won't know the pain that I'm hiding because I'm smiling, I'm living on the outside but inside I'm dying, you won't understand it, you won't get it cos you're fine i get it, you won't understand the funny feeling when you got nobody, doing everything while on your own even when you're hurting you can't even open up to people cos you trust nobody

Hook

You won't understand the life I'm living till the day i fall

You will never know the way i lived till the day I'm numb

You will never show me what is love until the day I'm gone, i think i might just throw my phone away cos nobody calls

You'll only gimme space when I'm passed out

you'll only know I'm thirsty when I'm choked out

you'll only lend a hand when I'm knocked down these are the thoughts in my head when I'm zoned out

You won't understand the life I'm living till the day i fall

You will never know the way i lived till the day I'm numb

You will never show me what is love until the day I'm gone, i think i might just throw my phone away cos nobody calls

You'll only gimme space when I'm passed out

you'll only know I'm thirsty when I'm choked out

you'll only lend a hand when I'm knocked down these are the thoughts in my head when I'm zoned out

You won't understand the life I'm living till the day i fall

You will never know the way i lived till the day I'm numb

You will never show me what is love until the day I'm gone, i think i might just throw my phone away cos nobody calls

You'll only gimme space when I'm passed out

you'll only know I'm thirsty when I'm choked out

you'll only lend a hand when I'm knocked down these are the thoughts in my head when I'm zoned out

Ain't nobody paved the way, let nobody say my name, let nobody say that they love me because they heard I'm late, i rather you should tell me you hate me atleast i know my fate cos people gonna call you beautiful and still spit on your face

Snakes, you'll never know them till they sting you, fake is what you call them snakes when they sting you,

hate, is what happens after they sting you it takes you to school and teaches you to avoid people

I keep on saying this cos all of these are things that damaged me and everytime i think of everything it makes me wanna cringe, the way they spat on me, hating on me, wishing for death on me but nonetheless I'll keep on doing me i really need some peace

that's the way it is, it's either you kill or be killed, I've never been at ease, my state of things never sit well with me and so my search begins for a better me, i got a lot of things i wanna be, i wanna make my dreams but I'm losing sleep

You won't understand the life I'm living till the day i fall

You will never know the way i lived till the day I'm numb

You will never show me what is love until the day I'm gone, i think i might just throw my phone away cos nobody calls

You'll only gimme space when I'm passed out

you'll only know I'm thirsty when I'm choked out

you'll only lend a hand when I'm knocked down these are the thoughts in my head when I'm zoned out

You won't understand the life I'm living till the day i fall

You will never know the way i lived till the day I'm numb

You will never show me what is love until the day I'm gone, i think i might just throw my phone away cos nobody calls

You'll only gimme space when I'm passed out

you'll only know I'm thirsty when I'm choked out

you'll only lend a hand when I'm knocked down these are the thoughts in my head when I'm zoned out

You won't understand the life I'm living till the day i fall

You will never know the way i lived till the day I'm numb

You will never show me what is love until the day I'm gone, i think i might just throw my phone away cos nobody calls

You'll only gimme space when I'm passed out

you'll only know I'm thirsty when I'm choked out

you'll only lend a hand when I'm knocked down these are the thoughts in my head when I'm zoned out