Letters Never Sent Lyrics

Now hold up hold up hold up

Why does it always feel like no one no one no one

No one know what I gotta say?

No one know what I gotta say?

Now hold up hold up hold up

Why does it always feel like no one no one no one

No one know what I gotta say?

No one know what I gotta say?

Sometimes, I read these letters that I write to escape my mind

But they never see the light of day, no no no sunshine

Just cloudy skies up in my mind and you wonder why?

You wouldn't understand even if you tried

I wrote a letter and I've been meanin' to say this

But I held on to it forever it felt like its been for ages

I guess what im sayin' is I feel im in another place

And ready to forgive, I've grown, past every situation

Nothin' that could ever be said or could change

What already was done or dead, or maybe taken place

But nothin' ever could take the place of a parent

I aint, airin' this out for yall to be embarrassed

I'm just ventin' over instrumentals

I don't wanna have this, stuck inside of me anymore

I'm tryin' to stop this pattern break the cycle of an adult

Wit' some trauma from his dad and his momma

God I been cryin' out for help, and only time gonna tell

If im gonna get any better, im just tryin' to prevail, against my demons

I've been dreamin' of a day I feel at peace

But I still have these memories and I might add trust me

They weren't always bad, I wasn't always sad

But somethin' about certain moments, I cannot make it past

And where I dont care to share all the that wit' the public just outta respect

I'm still a mess I been envious of my friends and their parents

And the relationship they sharin'

That had an effect on the way that I felt bad for myself it was hell I admit

Some of it was probably self inflicted

So maybe I should apologize, I just wanna fix it

My whole life I've been traumatized and had nobody to listen

Sometimes, I read these letters that I write to escape my mind

But they never see the light of day, no no no sunshine

Just cloudy skies up in my mind and you wonder why?

You wouldn't understand even if you tried

Two choices, brush all this off? Or im gettin' this off

So I made the decision i've been selfless protectin' everybody else

And i'm ready to flip and

Its time to get a grip on my life as I sit I reflect

I will no longer repress, I face everything in my head

Don't take this as a diss

Take it as me wantin' to mend all the unspoken awkwardness

That has haunted us so it just, no longer exists

And before I disappear into the abyss

I love you both, and thats the realest shit I ever said

Thank you for everything you ever did

Ya'll were amazing parents when weighin' the inexperience

And the fact that y'all weren't married

And y'all were really basically a couple of young teenagers see?

Who made an amazing seed

Now look at your boy, you raised a king

That's royalty, everybody could hold a grudge

That's annoying to me

We gotta appreciate people while they're alive

And i'm sayin it just incase y'all really ever been deprived to hear it from me first

Cause yea I know that y'all tried, I just finally realize

I'm focused was at my lowest not that I never noticed

I just had to take all this time to heal I hope you know this

I read this quote and it said to take everything

That's negative in what I feel and then let it spill even when its overkill

It may be too late to say it when its over im killed

Maybe you'll get this and read it after im dead, so I wrote it like will

Listen to what I just said, yea I wrote it like will

So I could give 'em my intellectual property, uh

Not like monopoly, nah, this you cant rob from me, uh

But you could take it and spread it to everybody, yup

That's the beauty of it, subconsiously

Yours truly Nick, come vibe wit' me

Uh, yea, yea

Sometimes, I read these letters that I write to escape my mind

But they never see the light of day, no no no sunshine

Just cloudy skies up in my mind and you wonder why?

You wouldn't understand even if you tried