Ill Never Crack Lyrics

I hate being happy

Cause it always makes me sad

Everyone I love I had to put them in the past

When I'm on my way

Gotta find a different path

Know that nothing gold ever lasts

Up and down, up and down, up and down, up and down

Now I get so excited for the life of me

I'm already fighting back the feeling of regret

All these little serpents always crawling up my neck

Every time I smile I know it puts my ass in debt

I'd rather be crying or alone in my bed

I'd rather shut the sun out, live in picture black instead

Manic panic, up and down, just trying to keep my head

Yeah, man, laughter's overrated

I don't got no fucking patience

I got dreams I hope I make it out this nightmare devil and tail

No, he don't fight fair

I'm punching and I'm clawing

Yeah, I'll make it tooth and tail

When they say I'm down bad

I see the way they stare

They say look on the bright side

But I just can't stand the glare

I never feel right

Cause my demons right there chasing me

Taking me underneath the earth

All of these friends of mine

I put them in the dirt

Not because I hate them

Cause I just can't make it work

Bitch, I can't take your heart

Need one of my own

Girl, trust me when I say

I'm better off alone

You can put the flowers right on top of my gravestone

I love this shit, love it not

My story has no fucking plot

Watch my brain as it rots

No, I don't wanna talk

I just went for a walk

And i didn't feel the sun everything it fades

It fades to grey

Run to oblivion

None, none enough, I ain't giving it up

The saddest part, I'll be on the moon

I'm rocking with the stars

Oh, when I start to smile

That's exactly when it starts

All the memories

All the enemies in my head

All the blemishes

All my closets filled with skeletons

The way it's up, the way it's down

No, when I fall, no one will hear the sound

My heart ain't shattered

Laying on the ground, my soul's tatted

With the name on it, man, my head fucking aches

It's pounding

Even with a smile, sadness surrounds me

My skull melts like candy

My heart has abandoned the hope for the future

Despair in my past

If I make it through the night

I pray I make it back

All these emotions saturated black

Till I keep my head up through the storm

I'll never crack