startingover ft. NotSwell Lyrics

Tired of starting over

These thoughts consume my mind

And when the partys over

I finally come to find

I need some help now

Find a way out

Tired of starting over

But I guess its what i'm all about

Tired of starting over

I'm choking all the time

And when my friends are over

I'll just pretend i'm fine

I need a way out

Something to calm down

Tired of starting over

But i guess its just what i'm all about

I've run outta luck, the fuck is happening

I pick myself up, then crumble down again

And i've come to terms with how I feel inside

So i'll live it out until I finally die

My expression is broken I cannot react

I saw the price of the meds and I had a heart attack

I have a bottle of pills and they help me relax

I got a problem with people who give nothing back

Yeah I'm sorry you're the one who's picking up the slack

And I know that everything is falling through the cracks

Can you help me baby one more time

Can I tell you why you're the reason i haven't quit in the first place

I thought you would smile, instead you gave me the worst face

It's not getting worse baby this is the worst phase

This shit is a curse, i'm hoping that maybe one day

Shit will be okay okay

Tired of starting over

These thoughts consume my mind

And when the party's over

Thats when I come to find

I need some help now

Find a way out

I'm tired of starting over

But I guess its what i'm all about

Tired of starting over

I'm choking all the time

And when my friends are over

I'll just pretend i'm fine

I need a way out

Something to calm down

Tired of starting over

But I guess its just what i'm all about

Tired of starting over

Switched up can't figure out

I hate me when I'm sober

Constantly feeling doubt

See i've never really been the one to

Stick to something once I start I'm done, you

Haven't noticed but i've come undone

Cause this shaking in my chest swear it's all but won

I've given up trying it's tearing me down

Call it pathetic you figured me out

Nothing to say that these voices don't shout

Again and again so it's wearing me out

It's wearing me out

These drugs won't seem to fix me

Something that I'm missing

Clarity won't bear its teeth

I'll search until I'm six deep

Tired of starting over

These thoughts consume my mind

And when the party's over

Thats when I come to find

I need some help now

Find a way out

I'm tired of starting over

But I guess its what i'm all about

Tired of starting over

I'm choking all the time

And when my friends are over

I'll just pretend that i'm fine

I need a way out

Something to calm down

Tired of starting over

But I guess its just what i'm all about