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I've been asking for free time

To get me outside of

This decline

I know that I can never recline

Cuz people always calling my phone

Asking why i ain't home

Asking why I'm not there yet

Why I ain't stay back

Why I ain't so laidback

Cuz nigga I ain't never had the time to be

Never had the shine to see

Never had to get it cuz

Niggas always asking

What the fuck is wrong with me

"Are you Good?"

If I never

Hmm

If I'm not smiling

How am I gone show them that I am a diamond

If I'm not grinding

If I'm not getting something on my own

Something to feed me

And something to keep me

And something to reap me

I told my mom I could do this shit

Please believe

In me

I know that Ive been

So damn closed off and lying

Saying that I wasn't trying

But really I was just fighting back

I was just fighting back

I was just crying

Inside my mind

Kept me from dying

Cuz I

Know that if I was

Trying get off

I would've just shut down

And send on a run

But I'm still stressed out

I'm still off now

You niggas always asking me

Why I ain't got my clout

Cuz I've been locked down

Straight off self-doubt

Looking like I'm cleaning all my clothes with Shout

How I'm supposed to live if you acting like this

How Am I supposed to be out

Coming out found

YEMI SOL "Why you aint dropping out?"

"Why you aint making music full time right now?"

I don't know cuz

If I really do

I don't know if my mom gone love me

"That's crazy"

And I don't know if my family gone trust me to get big

So they might see me intercepted

I might lose all my dimensions

Like a rectangle nigga

Gotta step off, a nigga

Got a take a breath

Before I step off my ledge

Cuz that shit gets inside my dome

How am I supposed to be alone

When my house doesn't even feel like a home

It's the first place that I ever fucking known

Cuz this house is a house, not a home

Bitch

How am I supposed to be alone

How am I supposed to get my own

How am I supposed to grow

Inside somewhere that don't even make me feel a lil comfortable

But I don't know

I'm just

Tryna get it on my own

Tryna get it on my own

Where I'm supposed to go home

Where I'm supposed to go home

How I'm supposed to call it home

This shit makes me so damn anxious

And so damn uneasy

Why I'm supposed to act like nothing was easy for me

Nigga it wasn't easy for me

So how am even supposed to grow

If I feel like my home's not a home