to die

Do you know that feeling you get

When you say a word over and over again

To the point where it doesn't even really feel like a word anymore

That's the best way I can describe how it feels

I feel as if I'm not myself

Every aspect of my life feels strange

And I'm not really sure why

It's something I can't really put into words

And I think that's why it's so scary to me

I wish I had a reason