If you only knew

I've been trying so hard to survive Sometimes I think that I wanna die

I feel so fuckin' guilty, cause God, I'm so lucky to live my life

So I keep all the pain to myself Losing faith, but nobody can tell

Mama don't want you worried, cause that would just hurt me

So I pretend I'm fine If you only knew

What my mind is telling me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room

Here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true

Oh, if you only knew All the shit my brain is putting me through

You can run and over straight to my room Here tonight I'm sorry, but I need you

Oh, if you only knew I wish I was somebody else