Dear Self

Dear Self - Erica Mason

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eh dear self

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lo eh dear self I'm sorry that I hurt you

I choose to love all this but I never loved you

I know you are afraid of rejection and I wanna took protection but instead I just let you be used I watched you crying and the clows every night made you say sorry in everytime you had issues I know I hurt you everytime people love and I want to say it was all because of you I never listen I was taught I'm giving everything you had even when you had nothing was loved the paciles of the sky will be happy if we sacrifice ourselves even though Jesus did it for us I know you like girls and I hated you for that I know you can't change and I hated you for that I know that you are broke and i hated you for that I know that you need me but never gave you that and I'm sorry I've been tryna make amends with my broken pieces tryna learn and let I hope you forgive me for leaving I've been sitting down with God and we've been taking about you he said i will never find love if I don't care about you yeah I know it's hard to trust some people walk away I know it's hard for you to live when you shouldn't stay I know it's hard the feel safe when you feel alone I know you feel like you do so much on your own but..I know the story in your mind it's been telling lies tryna said it you're ain't Worthy of the good life tryna said it you almost stayed to define who you are but you still deserve love despite the many flaws and you tried to prove your self even if it killed you

you are Worthy you love yeah i mean the real you we don't have to be ashamed now you know we made a part that we will never bend down but now sometime we can finally feel safer learn to trust God everytime our heart breaks and I know I wasn't there when you needed me the most I was tryna fix all this when I know that you are broke but I can take you back now I wanna learn to love you and figure out how how to give you what you need and accept you and stop blaming all this people that left you .......so on 2021 I was in the hospital on a suicide attempt and it was in that moment I choose to learn to love my self heal and walk in the fullness of who God made me to be regardless of what other people will say about me and I choose to come out in square and accept my self because I believe that God accepts me as well...................

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