forever

Sometimes I think about how I will be like this forever

And cry because I feel like you deserve better

The damage that I cause cause of my damage

And I can't wrap my mind round how you manage

To love me when we're at a disadvantage

And it's all my fault

I go outside just to fake a smile

I've been running for hours and haven't hit a mile

You've been patient with me while I try and reconcile

With the voices in my head