numb

I've been feeling numb

If I imagine I do it then I know that my mom

Would be sad but the truth is that I'm just fucking done

I can't feel nothing no more nah I'm just overcome

With sadness and anxiety yeah that's all I feel

I don't know a part of me that ever fucking heals

Yeah they say it gets better but that's not fucking real

I'm still stuck in my cellar I cannot even feel

Anything when I sell her the lies I got a deal

With myself I wouldn't do it but look at me kneel

Already had an attempt but I couldn't close the deal

Now I'm standing empty handed life it feels so surreal