journal ft. dylan liam Lyrics

I know it's fake but every day you visit me in my sleep

I can think of a million ways I've pictured you in my dreams

It's like I'm living twice a week

You've got this hold on me

I try to stay but even the light of the sun can't keep me asleep

The vision of you just fades from my view

And I can barely tell what's real anymore

So, I leave my journal in the drawer

I know it's real when I cannot hear anything when you're with me

It's insincere but I am just listening to the way you speak

Your voice could talk me to sleep

I'd play your voice on repeat

I would take you everywhere if your hand was in my reach

I don't care 'cause anyone would say the same if they could see

They fit so perfectly

Just like a puzzle piece

You say I love you

And I know that it's not real

But still, I wish it was true

But I know how you really feel

And that's why I can't tell you

All that you put me through

And so, I took my journal

And I wrote a song or two

Every day, when I am awake

And I see your face, that dream will replay

Just what would it take to throw it away?

This feeling of pain that always remains

I don't want to play

Take me out of this game

What do I have to do?

What do I have to say?

I don't wanna sing

I don't wanna play

I don't like this song

Don't know what to say

The tears that are stained on my pillowcase

The songs that I write that all sound the same

The warning for floods, the smell of the rain

The light of the stars, the sounds of the planes

If I could explain, it'd drive me insane

How all of these things relate you to me

I called this song journal, chose after your name

I can't share the meaning

Oh, it's such a shame

You say I love you

And I know that it's not real

But still, I wish it was true

But I know how you really feel

And so, I just won't tell you

All that you put me through

Instead, I'll take this journal

And write this song for you