If I Get Old Lyrics

Well I've been digging through my mind

Just trying to find something that I can use to justify

Going back to living how I used to think that I'd die, but I

Just keep on digging through my mind

But you keep telling me I won't

You say you wish I knew all of these things that I still don't

And sometimes giving up feels like it's getting real damn close

But you keep telling me I won't

And I fight with myself every day

I made a habit out of getting into my own way and I

Can feel it killing me real slow

And vices feel like a long lost friend

'Til they beat you down all over again and I

Know that I'll have to let them go

If I get old

I've been standing on the edge

For so long now it's gotten too damn hard not to pretend

That this is just how I am bound to be until it ends

So I keep standing on that edge

But you keep pulling me right back

Further, but not far enough that I'm able to relax

And it's hard to see what you have over everything you lack

So you keep pulling me right back

And I fight with myself every day

I made a habit out of getting into my own way

I keep picking up more weight than I can hold

And I can't see me how she does

It's dark in the shadow of who I was

But someday those weeds will be overgrown

If I get old

And I fight with myself every day

I made a habit out of hiding from my own damn brain

Just feed the flame, pray that it gets cold

But I got my woman and I got myself

And I know that I don't need nothing else

To shed the weight and sift through all the smoke

And if I've gone this far and still got by

Give me one good reason that I can't still try to

Buy back the parts of me I sold

And I never thought I'd live to see twenty-five

And when there's nothing to lose, there's nothing to mind

What scares me most is I'm starting to hope

That I'll get old

That I'll get old