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Oxys and the codeine

I might OD

Pour my life in this cup til this shit is empty

Nosebleeds, higher on the rafter than Ginobli

Proteins, hair follicles full of promethazine

But the white girls love it

My liver gon handle what my heart can't

While I'm coughing both my lungs out in public

I'm runnin

I'm lovin

All the wrong things

Addicted to a substance

Missin all my guidance

My vision is subsided

By all the laughter and all the riots

That my psyche used to cope from the trust that I advised in

A mental that was lying

A central path to dyin

Directional violence

Intentional silence

Intentional silence

It all began when I went and bent my halo

Dracos, chops, and sticks

Shit hit different angles

Fate though gave me the grace of an angel to save me

She wasn't meant to break me

My pull began to tear her til she screamin out in agony

Hear the lord and I think that he mad at me

I repent and I repent, make the same mistakes, blasphemy

My sins disastrous

My lip immaculate

My wrist I slash again

Self harm

Cus of the guilt that I feel and I needa feel more

Fuck a pill, fuck the hills, and I mean it for real

I get the chills when you're spoken of, I poured me a 4

But the lines never helped when I disguised all my lies on a knee

And I knelt wit a ring and I'd sing that I'm gon give you more

That I'm gon

That I'm gon give you more

Holy matrimony

Holy matrimony

Holy matrimony

Holy matrimony

That I'm gon give you more

I hate the molly

Spittin all the nonsense

Hot wirin my mind with the lies of assumed sex

You're the ecstasy I need but I was foolish

Stubborn

Unable to give you what you needed

Unable to be the man that you needed me to be

And I hate myself for it

I don't wanna forgive myself

But

This is a love letter

Not for you but for me

Reassuring my values

Trying not to lose myself once more

In the cold labyrinth that my feelins reside in

But at what point do I have to shed what I onced believed in

To trust in myself to not make the same decisions

To not make the same decisions anymore

I just can't do it again