Ten Year Open Letter Lyrics

It's not easy to bear your soul

For the past ten years I've been confined

In a world of redesign

And it seems not only dreams can breed the products of your mind

Stayed stagnant although I evolved

You ask yourself how is that possible, well problem solved

2007 September

Prepare yourself for the winter

It was the coldest ever

Born in the month of December, known for the coldest weather

Used to walk the streets like a winner, now i just hope for better

This is my process to cope, this is my open letter

I seen a lady with her daughter as they passed by

We locked eyes and then she laughed, wanted to ask why

I brushed it off, she must be off, so I just kept it moving

No hat in hand, was Dapper Dan, so I just kept it grooving

A year removed from school but I still had my student ID

So I would use it anytime to use computers by me

I'm in the lab now, I pass a couple people

I caught em looking at me their response was sorta equal

To the lady I passed in the past with her daughter

Is it me or am I trippin' let me go get this in order

Head into the lavatory

Realized that aint half the story

And it's worse because I'm hurt and I don't even have a story

Or an explanation that could've prepared me for this

Now my mind is extra racing feeling scary as shit

Am I sick, I might've caught something, I'm thinking death

Cuz if symptoms are showing, sickness is growing, there's nothing left

Exit out the door and think about the place that I'm from

Only came to live a dream, now I wish this was one

Damn it's hard to keep a steady job

Especially when your boss think you smoking ready hard

Thought to myself like you know me, you trying to call me a user

You think I'm out here abusing, you know this not what I'm used ta

Then it hit me it's real and people can only believe what they see

Rarely do they go against their eyes and find what's beneath

Started beefing with my cousin cuz I'm late on the rent

Told me I should go back home to the place I was sent

Now its September 2008

I'm back inside my state

My family had to readjust to recognize my state

Recognized my face, but tied to a distant memory

Cuz I was gone for two years, a lot had changed mentally

And physically, I don't even know where to start

My mother asked me was a using, like a shot to the heart

Could barely take it from the outside, seems it penetrated my inner circle of trust

Now i don't know who to trust

Enough is enough

Decided to go and get tested

I was never comfortable with having my fate in question

So they sat me down to give the blood

No antibodies in the blood

Was good I'm in the clear

But what's the reason I'm in here

Cuz I came for an answer

And if it's not Delilah then it's probably from cancer

I'm back to frustrated

Fast forward to 2009, around December

Went to go and get my passport, was having visions

Wasn't comfortable with where I was, how I was living

Started digging, needed something more, I found the scriptures

Started living what was written

Made plans for departure

Needed to gain perspective from the eyes of the author

FATHER bring me farther

I mean it that's my precept

Started looking at this like a test and not a defect

Gained unique perspective

It's now 2011

The plane headed to Cairo

My faith level survival

I slept on marble floors

I ate foul and tameya

They asked me bout my journey

I'm living on a prayer

I started my own business, was teaching down in Giza

They paid me in ginēh, I turned into a speaker

Now it's 2013, I'm back in the states now

Started focusing on how I can build my estate now

Still walking these 8 miles

Though rather optimistic

I shifted gears from doctors

My focus is nutrition

Refocus and commitment

The Earth is my physician

If I come from the dirt, then the dirt is my prescription

Now it's June 2014, my diet is plant based

Opened up my pallet, no longer has a bad taste

I lost a bunch of bad weight

Continued for a year or two

Eventually I fell off cuz I look in the mirror too

My original ailment still needed derailment

I guess i said if that aint right

Put junk back in my appetite

A self sabotage

We all have it hard

Life's got no training wheels, these are my handle bars

Learned how to handle scars

Oil from the coconut

They wonder how it is that I've come to know so much

You'd be amazed at what reveals when you just open up

Spirit was woken up the moment I was broken up

A few years had passed, it's 2017

Now it's feeling like it's realer than it ever seemed

Truth over perception, that's the realest shit I ever screamed

Truth is like my medicine

Perceived to be on Medellin

But I don't have to answer, perspective is a gift for me

And this is just a chapter in the book of Nard's history

Yeah, I said perspective is a gift for me

And this is just a chapter in the book of Nard's history

Book of Nard, Chapter one

Ten year open letter

Truth over perception, that's the motto

Don't let them tell you anything other than that

The truth is the truth

Can't take a thousand pictures and only post one

Gotta let em see what it is

Tell the truth and shame the devil

We here, lets get it