i watch jimmy kimmel every night in hopes that one day he'll get what he fucking deserves Lyrics

In Dreams I still see that smile

Cave it in then wake up and try to just live my day

Shove it all down

No

Let it all out

I can't fucking think about this horseshit

Without starting a tornado of shit

Fuck my mind

Deep desire

Keep this violent shit at bay

I can't help my ways

Childhood making it feel kinda fucking strange

To be mild

Weak to be kind

Impulses must be denied or you'll push in

My will flat-lined

Lost my sense of me

A sense that I'm living my life

I don't know who I

Don't know who I am

I put all my eggs in a bag with a hole in it

Went and bet it all on black when all I saw was red

Someone help me find my place, all I know is mine

Is a fucking mound of skin that someone bruised time

And again, the same shit

Spilling all over myself and I can't reach out to a friend

Mind blockade

Trying to get over all this years old shit

Childhood was shit

I can't. I can't. Fuck this

I can't do this all now

I've locked my cage

I feel safe

I've locked my cage

I'm home

I'm alive but not living

Waiting around for shit to fix my head

Don't put in work, expect it to be on its own

Why do I think I deserve it

Tear out my hair and yank on all of my teeth

Tear off my skin and hang it out to dry

I don't need these fucking flesh formalities

All that they do is preserve dirty rotten meat