THE OLD ME Lyrics

I'm losing my youth, but there's not much left to lose

'Cause I've already lost myself

And I don't want to lose you, too

My sense of purpose

Has been lost beneath the smolder

Of years passing by, burned from growing older

I miss the old me

He didn't have to force being happy

He lived free of insecurities

And found solace in complacency

But now I see my faults have left distaste of my name

My appearance leaves my mirror to shame

I don't feel happy with myself

It's something I don't know if I can help.

I miss the old me

Made more aware each day

I've become obsessed with my flaws

Afraid that they can't be covered

Afraid that they're all in me you saw

Always apologizing for things I cannot control

Afraid I'll die without a family to hold

Always leaving last in fear they'll mock me behind my back

Afraid it'd be for those parts of me that I lack

I don't feel happy with myself

It's something I don't know if I can help.

I miss the old me

I've missed all my chances

I'll never get another

I'll never get back those feelings I regret I shared

The time I wasted

Or the warmth of my grandmother

The nightly routine drags on

Cycling through the thoughts of the ones that I've loved and lost

Even the thoughts I abhor

For some reason, I long for

But nothing fixes me anymore

I'm sorry if I can't be what's expected on me

Please make me what you want to see

I miss the old me