I Need to be a Goddess Lyrics

Each image, I cannot retrieve

Conversations committed to transcripts and pottery

Disintegrating eclipsed by significance

In drift among discernment and petty sentiment

Joyful insidious howls from the back of the barroom

Finger picking and strums from the stage, a blushing heirloom

Hipbones, jaunting and folded, like paper napkins coast

Precipitating barfly's glass sheds liquid

Sizzling neon humming, like an awkward uniform

A cure, incantations under scorn

Invasive occupancy of your pain

To bar you from harm

Is to deny your agency's reign

My longing to protect

Is an attempt to preserve some non-existent image

But I love you like brothers

This space we built is leaving malleable and waining

Under a camera or an apartment containing

Tears that fall when we catch the other straining

Pervasive intricacies of an airplane bathroom

Alike the incomprehensible unfurling structures

Bonds woven in afternoons

Of trodden laughter and chatter

Each physical length growing insufferable

Desiring machines and dreary homicides

Arsenic for deafening housewives

Chemistry, orchestras, prison notebooks and pliers

Bombshells, bureaucrats, dumbbells, cataracts

Retiring and weary like porch step thermostats

Hegemony, checkerboards, neighborhoods and crunching fliers

I long to see my grandparents

Hug them tightly, attempt their accents

Humor and quarreling, discussion of taxes

In witching hours when manure is pungent

As purple horizons consume the sunset

Stucco walls and recliners keep us secret

Chris and Dorothy

Peter and Jackie

Richard and Mary

Les and Sally

Mutual care exceeds the body

Herman looks alive in those photos

Made his departure by the phone

In that smile shaped driveway

In front of our former home

Where a new family lives

But probably won't for long

I need to be

A Goddess emergent from sleep

An entity of tenacity

Resentment is belief

In the quality of being

Spend my evenings copying

Pages of my parents handwriting