They Just Don't Have It Lyrics

Sometimes they just don't have it

Teetering on cycles and they trying to find their balance

Falling down the rabbit hole trying to escape Alice

Searching for deliverance in habits

Til they realizes it's never the king who builds the palace

Sometimes they just don't have it in em'

Sometimes they just don't have it

Sometimes they just don't have it in em'

Hurt people birth people

Hurting breeds the worst people

Bruised egos hurting from the home to the church steeple

My blood it breaks my heart

To understand you gotta go back to the start

Child shit my sisters and I didn't get along

Ironic my parents growing apart started our bond

The only ones who knew the - going on

Your siblings will be all you got when everybody's gone

If we searched for validation about the situation

It's salutations to our reputation

My family hates confrontation so fronting's our favorite

No role models so our own roads we paved them

Cries and a lot of praying

But nothing was for certain

Said my dad was lashing out because of the long hours he was working

Looking back now that man was really hurting

Wish our level of communication went below the surface

Wish he knew to be loved you didn't need to be perfect

Wish I knew that too

To different cities I flew

With the sole objective of hearing him say "I'm so proud of you"

Damn who knew

Sometimes they just don't have it

Teetering on cycles and he's tryna find his balance

Falling down the rabbit hole trying to escape Alice

Searching for deliverance in habits

Til he realizes it's never the king who builds the palace

Sometimes they just don't have it in em'

Sometimes they just don't have it

Sometimes they just don't have it in em'

Sometimes

If anyone knew it would be my cousins

Akin to the same type of toxic loving

We were all running

In different directions searching for new forms of affection

How quickly those turned to different addictions

When the pain is too much you got no choice but to numb

And with no example you make your own version of love

The deprecation that comes with that, it's so dangerous

My sister's falling into the same toxic shit its heartbreaking

I'm feeling like her thoughts vacant

People saying they love me but I'm feeling like they all faking

Wish Father Time would stop taking

Looking around me I'm beyond anxious

People hanging themselves from my family tree

But my trauma fans just pay to see

Wish they'd view the bigger picture that they take of me

Wish they could see the hurt that I truly bleed

Sometimes I just don't have it

Teetering on cycles and I'm trying to find my balance

Falling down the rabbit hole trying to escape Alice

Searching for deliverance in habits

Til I realize it's never the king who builds the palace

Sometimes I just don't have it in me

Sometimes I just don't have it

Sometimes I just don't have it in me

Grandpa has dementia praying he dont forget how to smile

Dad broke up with my stepmom I

haven't seen her in awhile

Stepbrothers growing up fast, shit is so wild

Ask me what day it is, at this point hell if I know

My uncle just got married and I know he's on some grateful shit

My other uncle getting buried under childlike hateful shit

My Grandpa can't speak for himself damn that's some painful shit

My dad won't go to therapy although he's really needing it

Why my fam always compete and shit

Turning on eachother we just need some peace

So much of this could've been avoided if we just loved when we were needing it

We could break the toxic cycle but instead we just repeating it

We got the same blood in our veins

Why we spill it

You know what they say "raise a child need a village"

Grace has been pillaged and we need to reveal it

Stop criticizing the cries together we feel it

And heal it

Cuz sometimes we just don't have it

Some of that mom and dad shit

Some go and grab shit

Sometimes we just don't have it

So we blame anyone about it

Want them to solve everything about us

Shit we were never taught the power of forgiveness

That one word's been left out of all of this shit

Man, we are so vicious

We are straight whack

Baggage in way back

I barely talk to some of y'all unless I'm home and I hate that

We were brought up with payback on our placemats

Tension in the air and I taste that

Responsibility we need to take that

Cuz It's okay to be mad it's not okay to stay mad