Jaxon Shavers Lyrics

Reach me that water J Money please

Trying not to lose my mind

Trying not to lose my mind

Trying not to lose my mind

Really trying not to lose my mind

Lord knows I ain't lying

Thought I felt it all til I saw you in the NICU

Nurses all around and they keep coming stick you

Wouldn't let a nigga stick you so imagine how this feel

I just popped another tab you guessed it relapsed again

Walk in the room you hear my voice and scream damn near instantly

It be hard to hide cause the shit fuck with me mentally

I start to question is it me could I be the reason

Pray they don't play at this point cause I'm tweaking

And if we get into it just know I ain't beefing

Feel I'm pussy then push me if that's what you're perceiving

Daily fighting my demons

While niggas plotting and scheming

All my love be authentic I think that's the reason

I always get hurt

Wiping tears with my shirt

Putting my pain in verses and questioning am I cursed

Hopefully this shit work

Maybe it'll change something

If I gotta change being real sorry can't change nothing born thuggin

I been trying not to lose my mind

Really trying not to lose my mind

Lord knows I ain't lying

I been trying not to lose my mind

I been trying not to lose my mind

I been trying not to lose my mind

I been trying not to lose my mind

Lord knows I ain't lying

I been trying not to lose my mind

I been trying not to lose my mind

Honestly I don't know what to do like fa real

Waking up to a text that you dead got me in tears

Thought I faced all my fears til I ended up here

Mentally breaking down but outside I'm full of cheer

You don't know the half need a raft to weather these problems

Positive side gaining weight

On the negative breathing problems

Go to sleep I put a finger by your nose make sure you're conscious

Wonder if God tired of me coming with all this sobbing

Pill popping to take the pain lately been on Molly

Make me happy for a second then again I'm lying

Not to lose my mind I'm trying God I need you more than ever

I know pressure produce diamonds but I feel light as a feather

Take the pain away please take the pain away

Other day had a thought to blow my brains away

Ain't saw the sun in awhile with all these rainy days

Sometimes I just wanna fly away to a lil hideaway and hibernate

I been trying not to lose my mind

I been trying not to lose my mind

Lord knows I ain't lying

I been trying not to lose my mind

Really trying not to lose my mind

I been trying not to lose my mind

I been trying not to lose my mind

Lord knows I ain't lying

I been trying not to lose my mind

Really trying not to lose my mind