Happy Or Sad Lyrics

Happy Or Sad - Royrex

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Yeah

I have doubts

I have insecurities

I feel pain

I guess it's all a part of me

I'm insane

That's all I wanna be

I feel hate

And it's deep inside of me

Back for a minute, man let's go back for a minute

Back when I was a kid, prolly 10, 11 years old

I was molested to the bone

I was afraid to go home

Had to reach mom on phone

There was some evil at the door

Hate the way I used to be before

Man, I'm all stuck

Maybe that's why I'm so closed off

Maybe that's why I hate love songs

Maybe that's why I keep running away

Maybe that's why I'm so difficult

Ever since when my grandma died

Man, I swear I've been so traumatised

All my hope has been paralysed

Had to find truths within the lies

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

Yeah

Never wanna go back

Life's been moving on a fast track

Relationships, I never had that

Money goals I'm tryna get the bag

Every single day I'm getting older

All my emotions are getting colder

All my fears are getting stronger

Can't stop feeling like I'm starting over, yeah

Even when I'm so Christian

Still with God I'm so distant

Can't find it, my soul's missing

Tryna get close, that's so creepy

Yeah, that's how I feel

Damn being fake this is real

I'll put my head on a grill

Wait, you tryna give me a pill

Nah, don't need a pill to be chill

I feel anger

For all of the things I can't handle

All of my pain built a castle

I write some bars then I cancel

Keep your advice keep your counsel

I put my hands on a Bible

Searching for peace

Head's in the West

My soul in the east

I think I'm lost

I'm lost and defeated

Yeah

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

Yeah

I'm allergic to the present

I live in the past

I might be having a blast

I had a couple of moments I hated my dad

We do not see eye to eye

I do not know what it's like to be happy and proud

I live my life being sad

I'm tryna climb to the top but I'm pushed to the ground

And my depression is bad

I tryna get me a minute

I tryna mind my business

I tryna get me some digits

All in my bank account

I tryna work till I get it

I'm tryna till the ground

Go through the hustle and bustle

I'm tryna clear the frown

That I have on my face

When I look into my wallet and there is no money

I hate it

When I can't spoil my girl

Buy some jewellery for my mom

Got to places that I want

Cop a benz and a Porsche

Nevertheless

I'ma give thanks for life

Score a six on a dice

We only got one chance

So I'ma do everything right

Yeah

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad

I think I'm happy but I feel so sad