Cross My Heart Lyrics

Twenty-four years old what a blessing

And to be honest I ain't think that I would be alive

All these years I would suffer from depression

And many nights I would contemplate my suicide

I was hiding so much pain and resentment

To see my tears you would really have to scrutinize

But it's time for me to tell you my confession

And it's time for me to heal cause I'm bruised inside

Twenty-three was my last year

I was certain I was bound to take my life away

I swear to god I saw my last day so damn clear

I thought that I would never get to see the light of day

I was hanging by a thread

And every single breath was a moment I would dread

Although I was breathing I still felt like I was dead

Wishing that my eyes remained sealed when I slept

Goodbye

I was searching for an exit sign

On a waiting list for death I was next in line

Sick and tired of my life I was ending mine

And no longer could I fight for my peace of mind

But I thought about my family

Thought about my future and the blessings that it can bring

So I held on to faith

I prayed every night that one day I'll be safe

Cross my heart and hope that I will live another day

And if I fall will you pick me up when I'm stuck in rain?

Oh can I count on you to guide me when I'm lost inside?

Oh can I count on you to find me through my darkest nights?

Oh I, I, I

I, I, I

I, I, I, I

I don't know if I can take this

I don't know if I can have enough patience

Oh why, why, why

Why do I feel this way?

Put a guard on my heart and it still breaks

Cross my heart and hope that I will live another day

And if I fall will you pick me up when I'm stuck in rain?

Oh can I count on you to guide me when I'm lost inside?

Oh can I count on you to find me through my darkest nights?

Oh I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I

I don't know if can take this

I don't know if I can have enough patience

Oh, why, why, why

Why do I feel this way?

Put a guard on my heart and it still breaks

No matter what you're going through

Hold tight and don't you dare let go

Keep in mind when you're down it's not only you

People go through it all around the globe

So don't be afraid

Promise you everything will be okay

Keep your head up and the sun's gonna' shine

You'll gain all the happiness that you can find

I couldn't bare to see my mother's face

If she had to put her son underneath a grave

Couldn't fathom how would my brother would be tryna' cope

If I never said goodbye and left without a trace

Couldn't picture how my uncle would receive the news

Being that I'm one of two from the kids he raised

Couldn't picture all the pain inside my funeral

As I lay silent crossing into heaven's gates

But I'm still here and I ain't going nowhere

Visions of my future were so blurry now it's so clear

Imma' face the trials of my life and live with no fear

Imma' be the best that I can be for those I hold dear

And if you're going through the same thing

I guarantee that you and I share the same dream

To be free from the burdens of your misery

Just have faith and one day this will be history

Cross my heart and hope that I will live another day

And if I fall will you pick me up when I'm stuck in rain?

Oh can I count on you to guide me when I'm lost inside?

Oh can I count on you to find me through my darkest nights?

Oh I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I

I don't know if can take this

I don't know if I can have enough patience

Oh, why, why, why

Why do I feel this way?

Put a guard on my heart and it still breaks