Then & Now Lyrics

I always thought I would make it to the pros

Achieve my every goal acquire lots of gold

Never would I thought I'd fucking stumble down the road

With the fire in my heart but my thoughts feeling cold

Goddamn homie you used to be the man homie

Standing so tall now you're sinking in the sand homie

Where's the plan demons lurking like a fan but fuck it

Gotta shine brighter cause I know I can this shits

Been rough how the fuck did I get here

Empty to the touch come and sit here I'm fixing dinner

I can show you how to be a winner

Shadows follow lonely and the sinners picking shits from litter

Feeling like my life is getting dimmer body's getting slimmer

Mind is hearing voices and they're saying do not enter

But ima venture cause nothing here can calm my center

I'm lifting all you up while I'm dying from the fucking pressure

Hold me close

Never let go

Hold me close

Never control

Shits real homie I have lost myself

And I'm tryna see clear take the goddamn wheel homie

Feel homie I have lost all sense

Feel hell bent

Ima ghost before I'll give a toast

To everyone that helped me I know you meant the most

I'm sorry for my actions I'm the worst at staying closed

Scared to let them in so I push them to the coast

Now I choke pride stuck up in my throat

I feel I gotta fix it sounds like a fucking joke

So now I always wonder I'm wondering the most

I wonder what they're thinking I wonder while I smoke fuck

I'm living backwards

This music emotions that captured

Go after keep my foot up on the gaser

And master yo I'm heading for disaster

Raw raw homie back and forth a seesaw

Swear the only thing that held my wits It's gone homie

Far homie where I've headed all along

It all depends if I can keep my mental strong homie

Hold me close

Never let go

Hold me close

Never control

Shits real homie I have lost myself

And I'm tryna see clear take the goddamn wheel homie

Feel homie I have lost all sense

Feel hell bent

Verse 3 now you get the worst of me

Looking down the tunnel yo the tunnel is a curse for me

What the fuck you doing common thoughts that I'm recycling

Viking king empty to my throne and It's trifling

Fighting these demons deep wounds like they knifing me

Site to see these broken limbs yet I'm stippling

I am me so get the fuck on your variety

Eyeing me lay you flat like we're ironing

If I were thee I'd only grip what desires me

Split I can't tell if it's the truth or the liar me

Conspiring take a hit and go try to breathe

Mist when I try to see mixed with the stifling

Frightening permanent on a tired theme

Heightening I'm legit on a higher beam

The fires means don't quit bitch your vital means

It is entirely fit go and live your dream

Hold me close

Never let go

Hold me close

Never control

Shits real homie I have lost myself

And I'm tryna see clear take the goddamn wheel homie

Feel homie I have lost all sense

Feel hell bent