BLUECHECKS Lyrics

I hate looking into the mirror and seeing myself

No complex emotions

Complexity completing myself

I hate looking for validation through social media

I need social mediation

And real conversation

And some closure from some past relations

Cos I tend to blame myself for things I can't control

I hate the way some things unfold

I hate that some people find some topics uncomfortable

I find comfort through solidarity

And letting go

And I'm so done

With re-runs

"Series of Unfortunate Events"

Play out through seasons

People leave

But I can't think of excuses to keep them

Ghost me for reactions

But only regret taking time to meet them

I wanna meet some real ones

I'm tired of the condescending

So can we quit pretending

Until then I'm spending

Spending, another night on the moon

Spending, another night on the moon

Blue Checks

We're so obsessed

Mood swings

On a swingset

Pushed away

Thrown to the woodchips

I might recess

Just black licorice

Call me a societal reject

I don't wanna get played or play around

Or play by the rules of this play town

Playing the victim is so played out

I find solace in the rainfall

Used to rain on my parade, now

You look up to me

I'm the nimbus spittin' lyrics from the raincloud

You hurt me, now I'm hungry

Spilling tears in fear that I'll get bigger than your name now

Like

Pitter pitter patter on the concrete

I have no following, so they won't bother following

Only have 4 digits so it's not enough to call me

All I know is up so I can't help to feel I'm falling

I'm crawling to the top, the mountain not traversed

"The Road Less Traveled"

Travel 'til it works

I'm humbled by the hurt

They didn't trip on me

So I stumbled on my worth

And now they're history

I'll go viral cos it's meant to be

This is my destiny

No more surrendering

No one defended me

But I'm still here

No verification

They hate innovation

No "lil" in my name

So nobody would care

Reaching for help

But nobody was there

I'm reaching for EDEN

I'm climbing the stairs

Searching for something to believe in

I'm crashing through the stars

And I'm stepping off the deep end

Until then, I'm

Spending, another night on the moon

Spending, another night alone, far from home

Spending, another night on the moon

Spending, another night alone, far from home