Ashes Lyrics

Yeah

I hate the fact that I don't know who I am

Cause when I'm looking in the mirror, I don't know that man

Or maybe it's a boy, honestly, I wouldn't know

Cause nobody's ever shown me what it means to be grown

So I'm sitting here, tryna put together my puzzle

But I don't got a reference for it, so I'm having some trouble

How am I supposed to know how to connect all of the pieces

When all they ever tell me to do is just talk to Jesus?

Should I start at the center or piece together the edge?

Should I separate the colors, all the greens and the reds?

I'm sorry, but this life thing has got me confused

Do I do it for myself, for the art, or for the views?

I could fail for ten years and still check every box

But will I make it that long if no one's hearing my thoughts?

It's not like I need all the accolades and praise

But I just want some people to respect my name

But what do I have to offer that could make that a reality

When I'm the one who's been criticizing and doubting me?

If I can win myself then I can probably make it

As long as I stay honest and I don't try to go fake it

But that's pretty hard to do when you don't like who you are

And you wanna refresh, reset, and restart

So tell me would I rise from the ashes on the ground

If I lit my life up and I burned it all down?

Yeah

I hate the fact that I don't know who I am

Cause I used to want to have the whole world in my hand

But the more than I thinkin' about it, the less I'm sure

If I want to look back and say my life was a blur

Would it be so full, or would it be too fast?

No I wanna slow down and reconsider my path

Cause I been on the same one for the last five years

But in truth, the road ahead isn't all that clear

Cause I used to see a city, but now I'm just in a fog

And I'm wandering and wondering just what went wrong

I used to skip meals so that I could make beats

Now I'm struggling to make a single melody a week

So if I quit it all, what would I do then?

Would I find a new home for my heart and my head?

Would I get to live a life overflowing with peace?

Would I wake up every day with a soul that felt free?

Cause these the gifts that I don't got right now

Yeah my poetry of thought is all blocked right now

And I know I got some habits I should stop right now

But I don't know what's sittin' on the top spot right now, yeah

So many things are battling for my heart

Makes me wanna refresh, reset, and restart

So tell me would I rise from the ashes on the ground

If I lit my life up and I burned it all down?