Just a Bitter Pill ft. Chris K Lyrics

14 Years old and I'd had enough

The final day had come to call my bluff

24 Hours of this life was too much

They said that I would never be up to snuff

On that fateful day when I came home from school

Opened the pillbox and I broke the rules

Took the deadly cocktail to my room

Swallowed every damn pill and prayed for my doom

My father was too poor for white

My mother black and too polite

So I grew up on the outside with no identity

Haters told me that I was worthless

And I believed them

So I left no note no goodbyes

God can you hear me

I'm coming to you side

There's too much pain over here

Please forgive me but I'm tired

I know I'm weak

But believe me I have tried

Oh yeah death is just a bitter pill away

Oh Lord please give me a reason to stay

I know that life has ups and downs

All these twists and turns

I'm about to cause arson and I will let it burn

I've been thinking about what's gonna kill me fast

A gun, a knife, a pill, man I know the pain can't last

I was only 16 when I really felt it hard

Strength dashed out of me like it was Mario Kart

Cold sweats dripping out of my chest and my thighs

If this is the cost of being alive man that's a heavy price

I guess that heaven didn't want me

God had plans for me

Scripted out my life the lead cast of this movie

He said, Chris you my glory, priceless jewellery

You the type that I take when I want to make history

Truth be told the pain is heavy, God I can barely

Look myself in the mirror and feel that I am worthy

Man I know that it's dark before it's sunny

I know that it takes a bee to sting to get that honey

I know that if I'm getting gold I'm getting money

So I will brace myself and live it up for this journey

God can you hear me

I'm coming to you side

There's too much pain over here

Please forgive me but I'm tired

I know I'm weak

But believe me I have tried

Oh yeah death is just a bitter pill away

Oh Lord please give me a reason to stay

God can you hear me

I'm coming to you side

There's too much pain over here

Please forgive me but I'm tired

I know I'm weak

But believe me I have tried

Oh yeah death is just a bitter pill away

Oh Lord please give me a reason to stay