Lost Again Lyrics

Oh, I can't break away

I must have you every day

As regularly as coffee or tea

You've got me in your clutches and I can't get free

You're getting to be a habit

Lost my mind, lost the signs

Lost my soul

Lost the time, couldn't find

It before

Got stressed, couldn't rest

Wasn't my best

Had to hide from Mother

She wants to spend time with me but I don't care

It's hard to grow attached when you're bound by fear

And it's not her fault but it's her weight to bear

But no matter what the fuck I do

I can't make myself care

She probes me for answers

Wants to make me share

Says she'll sit down and listen

Says she'll make sure she hears

But I don't want to tell her

I don't want her to be aware

So I'll keep it to myself and keep sending those prayers

Feel like she would never listen

Lived in fear my whole life

But I don't want her to deal with my despair and my strife

Looking at my friends and to me I can't compare

Had to focus on myself to impair this nightmare

Lost my mind, lost the signs

Lost my soul

Lost the time, couldn't find

It before

Got stressed, couldn't rest

Wasn't my best

Had to hide from Mother

"Is there any anger in you? Any anger in you at all?"

"'Course there is. Yeah, 'course there is."

"Talk about that. Tell me what the anger is, what - what are you angry about it?"

"Hm. Um... I don't remember."

Locked in my bedroom, with no way to get out

But the lock's in my chest, intertwined with a sprout

And the sprout's rooted deep, twisted around my heart

Like a mother grips their baby when their life first starts

I got my 1994 on my chest and an 05/04 next to it

And I joked about joining that club at first

But then I actually hoped when I was at my worst

And I see people talking and I hope it's not true

That my actions have distorted their point of view

'Cause I know I'm good and I hope I am deep down

But my anxiety has handed me a tarnished crown

Lost my mind, lost the signs

Lost my soul

Lost the time, couldn't find

It before

Got stressed, couldn't rest

Wasn't my best

Had to hide from Mother

Lost my mind, lost the signs

Lost my soul

Lost the time, couldn't find

It before

Got stressed, couldn't rest

Wasn't my best

Had to hide from Mother