Fight With Myself Lyrics

If you're listening to this then welcome

Welcome to the nights I swore I'd change

Welcome to the mornings where I woke up the same

Welcome to the mistakes the regrets the voices in my head

This ain't just an album

This is every scar every loss every fight I barely survived

So sit down listen close…

And walk with me through the fire

Woke up again on the floor of my sins

Empty bottles broken trust yeah it's all sinkin' in

Phone buzzin' I ignore it—who the hell wanna talk?

Ain't no words that could fix all the bridges I dropped

Mirror cracked and my face looks strange

Same dead eyes but the soul ain't the same

Swore last night was the last damn time

But I'm lyin' to myself—hell I do it by design

I been fighting with myself I been running from the past

Tried to break the chains but they held me back

Every scar every loss every tear that I shed

Still breathing but I feel like I'm already dead

My mom's name lightin' up my phone

Bet she's prayin' that I'm sober but she knows I ain't home

Sarah's text just said *"I can't do this again"*

Man I already know how this story's gonna end

Used to drink for the buzz now I drink for escape

Used to call it fun now it's just a mistake

I was a son a brother a father a man

Now I'm just another bottle in a trembling hand

I gotta get up… I gotta move

But I don't even know where to start

I been fighting with myself I been running from the past

Tried to break the chains but they held me back

Every scar every loss every tear that I shed

Still breathing but I feel like I'm already dead

Nah… I ain't going out like that

I done lost too much I ain't losing me too

I done hurt too many I ain't adding more wounds

No more bottles

No more chains

No more drowning myself in the weight of the pain

No more excuses I know what's at stake

I been buried alive but it's time that I wake

They thought they had me

Thought I'd never break free

Thought I'd fade into the bottle…

But I ain't done yet