Ascension of the Lost (A Reflection) Lyrics

They thought I'd crumble underneath the weight of it all

But here I stand, rebuilt by the hands of every soul I lost

Proof that even in the darkness the spirit can ascend

This isn't just a song, this is a resurrection

Me and God ain't on speaking terms

He left me bleeding just to watch me learn

My world on fire and I'ma let it burn

I feel the rage and for you I yearn

To hold me tight, say it'll be okay

Seen you in my dreams, but you can't stay

Since the day you left, so much has changed

Wish I could wake up and see your face

Most these days is hard, you ever had to live without your heart

Wish I could pick up the phone and call to hear your voice

But the beep would start, I kinda found peace in the dark

And it's a little scary, I need that spark

Try to stand tall, but my knees get weak and ooh, I fall apart

Don't wanna go back to when my heart was black

I know you're gone, don't understand that

Crying writing this song, tears hit my pad

Been pissed for so long, I'm hurt and sad

Had to stay strong, not portray I'm mad

We had dreams, so we followed the path

Do I even need to add your kids need you bad

If missin' you comes in waves, huh

I'm drownin' today

Profound is the faith that took you away

So many words I wanna say

You was an angel for heaven's sake

I'll always cherish the love you gave

If I could get you back for one more day

It'll just be a trick so I can take your place

Cause I can't accept fate

When I needed love, you was there

And I hope you know how much that meant to me

Flowers for the dead I wish that I could see you again

I spent them hours in my head and still don't none of this make sense

I guess I'm selfish, I resent you wasn't there for some events

That's just me needing space to vent I know you're worthy to ascend

I lost my brother's not just friends at night I wish the pain would end

I pressed that knife against my skin I mixed my quaaludes with some gin

I put that gun up to my head they said I'm lucky she walked in

Plead to the sky, I'm haunted by some demons who just won't die

Clipped my wings can't fly impending doom suffice

Remorse that I survived when they had the light, the kind that thrived

Still can hear their voices, am I

Delusional thinking they by my side

Instead of dealing with the grief, get high

Wrestling death, my self-sacrifice

The dark and gloom, all I exemplify

Sending search parties in the afterlife

Dreaming of the moment that we could reunite

But until then, I remember all the times when I

Since the world took your from me

There's this weight that lingers inside of me

A gravity pulling me towards memories of faces I'll never see again

The graveyards in my heart are full

Each headstone with its own lesson

Through the storm of sorrow

I had to learn to dance in the fiery rain

Still feel alone, no one to talk to

Every door open up, hope you will walk through

I know you're disappointed, it's hard since we lost you

God need an angel, the world needs your heart too

Wish we could live out a part two

Death is the price for a life that they charge you

If I seen it coming would've stood there to guard you

God you took the ones I love, but to hate you ain't a smart move

Trapped inside of this dark room

Contemplate inhaling carfumes

I just want to be with my dogs

Represent squad til the time comes when we all get to ball soon

Cause I'll started taking them shots because of you

Sat inside depression

Wonder if they think I left them

Couldn't be further from the truth

If you're listening, this should answer your questions

Vivid memories of a conversation piece

Where we talking about how we destined

You laughed it off like you wasn't for it

Said if it's meant to be, you ain't gotta force it

You pat my back said I'm rewarded with the task intact

To push us forward, now you're not here to see our fortress

Almost like you knew you'd leave before us

I let you down, but you still important

You're the source why my soul is pouring

I remember them early mornings

They were taken too soon

But their spirit is alive in me each step I take is for them

Every tear watered the seeds of resilience and now, I bloom in their honor

What once felt like chains of sorrow now feels like wings of purpose

I'm here because they lived and I won't let their story fade

The broken pieces of my heart turned into shards of strength

I bled in the shadows but now, I rise

Carrying their light forward

Hey, I learned to tame my monsters

In the forest of mystique

And I done walked out that same darkness

Had their voices guiding me

Heard they said love would be eternal

I've embraced it as my creed

Must know them bottles couldn't drown me

All them drugs just made me see

I'm a soldier of the fallen

Bridle soul, understand Gollum

Did some cleaning, found my calling

In the cracks of my despair

My broken hope held grow a garden

Fate and destiny, menaging

I ain't come this far for nothing

Like my papa, boy, I'm stubborn

The summit where I'm summoned

Something, something, something, something

Man, I'm plotting when I'm mumbling

Weeping what I sow off of all of my rebelling acts

Straight and narrow failed at that

Class_sick raps compelling facts

I never met a ceiling that I didn't turn to shattered glass

Got my powers from my past

And my heart carries those who passed

It feels good to be someone who they telling that

This isn't goodbye

This is a promise

I'll honor their light

Even in my darkest nights

For every soul I lost deserves a legacy that'll shine forever

From the abyss I regrew my wings

Thier love didn't end with death

It became the reason we keep fighting

And keep living