you weren't for me (extended) Lyrics

Late in May

When I had first saw your face

I didn't know I would feel this way

You're in my space

It came in June

Then all my friends they saw it too

The way you'd treat me"We're more than friends"

I wish I didn't pretend

That the way you held me so high

Like I was floating in the sky

And the cracks on my walls

And the way you boarded them up

But it wasn't for me

Because I didn't see

That you weren't for me

You stayed at my place

And you let me cuddle when morning came

The way you made fun of my sweet escape

I couldn't replace the thought of you

And I always thought you wanted me too

You'd kiss my head and hold my hand

You wrecked my plans

That the way you held me so high

Like I was floating in the sky

And the cracks on my walls

And the way you boarded them up

But it wasn't for me

Because I didn't see

That you weren't for me

It's December now

And I'm okay that you're not around

Because in August the leaves had changed

I kissed your face in the moonlit night

It wasn't alright

Because you left me there crying

Showing all my fears

I wish I didn't feel this way

I can't replace

That the way you held me so high

Like I was floating in the sky

And the cracks on my walls

And the way you boarded them up

But it wasn't for me

Because I didn't see

That you weren't for me

You had someone at home

Waiting for you to be there

I cry all night long thinking that it's not fair

That you don't know how I'm feeling

The cracks all in the ceiling

I'm waiting for it to come down on me

I don't want to feel a thing

Because it wasn't for me

No, you weren't for me

Yeah, I couldn't see

That you weren't for me

And the night that we both got so drunk

You said that we're okay

But how are we okay when I barely see your face

In the parking lots at Walmart

And the times we'd go to eat

But I didn't mean to leave that mark for everyone to see

We said we needed space

But you never gave me what I need

And that girl you love is lucky

Because she's everything you need

And what you need is for her to never be like me

I would be healing

Getting ready for the season

I should be healing

But you are the reason

Yeah, I should be healing

But 'tis the damn season for heartbreak