vacant. Lyrics

Yeah

It's like the more I try to do the more I end up with regret

Try to keep it centered got me standing on the ledge

Know that I'm a sinner think I'm failing all the tests

I just wanna get ahead

Keep my hands up now feeling pressure to the head

Thinking 'bout the dream got me lying in my bed

Lacking motivation isn't any of it left

They was getting paid while I'm drowning in the debt

I was trying to get it while my girl is walking out

Thought I was the man fill my head up with these doubts

For a whole nother year I was tryna get her back

Didn't know that when she left she wasn't ever coming back

Now I'm glad cause I learned a lesson through all of the ignorance

I'm wise to my mistakes no more feeling like an idiot

Walking through my past trying to figure out the difference

Been through a lot of hurt and a bunch of other synonyms, yeah

Tried selling out my innocence I gained a lot of friends

But I still felt all the emptiness, yeah

Gave a shot at being tentative I saw it to the end

But my actions felt repetitive, ay

Got me sitting on a catalyst don't know if it'll blow

Tell me God I cannot handle this

I just want the truth tell me really am I meant for this

Nothing looking back except reflections from a camera lens, ay

Why'd you give me this dream? I don't want it anymore

Take it back and lock me out, go ahead and close the door

I'm a soldier they ignore, when it rains I guess it pours

And I heard it all before, look

Pick your head up kid don't let them crush your soul

There's still a flame to light with a dirty lump of coal

Don't let them stop the roll

But how can I prevent when I never had control

I just wrote a letter I don't think I'll mail it out

Got the gas in the pit need a spark to bail me out

They're staying really silent, but their actions speaking loud

Guess they never had my back didn't know it till now

With the brick against my back only one way to go

There's not any turning back on a one-way road

Pain in a second it's the path I chose

Even when it's one direction it's a journey unknown, yeah

Thoughts convincing me to quit

I just wanna go back to something simpler than this

Something weighing on my mind and I don't know what it is

On the scale of regret got a guilty conscience

Stacking up my chips time to put it all in

In the break of the waves think I peeped a shark fin

Blaze to the maze calling me to arson

Now I see a vacant spot time for me to park in