
Facing My Demons Lyrics
- Genre:Hip Hop & Rap
- Year of Release:2024
Lyrics
I'm facing my demons
I'm trading my sins in…for wins and
I'm taking my freedom
Replacing my sentence…with penance
I've got my reasons
For shit that I've lived with…but this is
My time and my season
As hard as this is it's…intended
I'm facing my demons
Tip the bottle take a swig so you can have the courage
To get what you gotta get to have a fuckin' purpose
You've been feeling worthless set to panic and the hearse is
Where you're probably gonna land if you don't really start to purge it
Drink up all your money just to piss it all away
People think your funny so they think that you're okay
Doesn't really matter cause your never gonna say
The way you really feel inside you're crumbling away
And so you drink up-smoke up-anything to cover it
You think some-hope comes-then you start to wonder if
Your even-focused-maybe your just blubberin'
You're weak and-hopeless-look at how your fumblin'
It's humblin' to say it…I'm runnin at the grave and…
The holes already dug-six feet under's where I'm layin'
I spent so much time on prayin'-just to find I was alone
No one's answering my prayers and no one's dialing my phone
But these bottles never leave me and the weed can keep me chill
The music entertains me-let the music keep me real
While my lights are shutting off because I can't appease the bills
Until they start to notice me and how I bring the skills
When the alcohol don't work to make me feel like I'm enough
I throw myself at women just so I can feel the love
I feel like I deserve because my life's been fucking tough
And the sex can take the pain away before it bottles up
So I pour about a cup-here we go it's bottoms up
Glass or girl it doesn't matter I'm not stopping til im done
I'm not stopping til the sun-shows it's little ugly face
Through the window then we'll start again when daylight runs away
I repeat the cycle-all the while-in denial-with a smile
Shit this life is such a trial-I'm a child-I get wild
I can throw a fit…and I pray that you see when
I do it it's because I've been facing my demons
I'm facing my demons
I'm trading my sins in…for wins and
I'm taking my freedom
Replacing my sentence…with penance
I've got my reasons
For shit that I've lived with…but this is
My time and my season
As hard as this is it's…intended
I'm facing my demons
Cuttin' up skin-that's somethin'…sometimes I still want it
Happiness has been elusive-shit you've thought I've done it
Staying in the dark is less intense than taking love in
Sometimes light is blinding-you find safety where your stuck it's
Hard to write this music-so conceptually and use it
That's the recipe infused with-parts from lesser me the truth is
It's gets messy because through it-I've been stepping on my shoes and
Now my toes are getting sore because I'm stomping when I do it
Take a couple substances and fit the words so cleverly
Together 'fore depression leaves you crumbling incredibly
It's numbing me with subtlety preparing me for heavily
Bottled up aggression to come out full force ahead of me
Cause I lock it all away until the moment that my top blows
Rock shows-hot hoes-kill it when I drop flows
Rehearse it till it's perfect that way not a single thought shows
Nervousness unsettling this life can be a lot bro
Really I'm not strong enough to handle things without the music
I do this for myself so I can process things that I've been through and
Since I do it well l I guess its good enough to sell a bit
To try to feed my demons through the funding if I keep it true and
Everything I'm selling you is everything I am I'm
More than just a song though I'm more than just a damn rhyme
Used to use my fists to solve my problem now I grab mics
Fightin' ain't the only way to make them throw up hands right?
That's a bar…shit I guess I'm at the bar
I repeat these cycles like it's nascar and I'm at the part
Where I go around again to make the same mistakes I gotta
Get out of this place man I got demons that I'm facin' I'm a
Man that always said I don't like being in a box but shit
I'm sitting in an octagon and standing at the opposite
Side the fucking thing is my mistakes fuckin' bitch
If I die you die to get out my head look what my guns against
I'm facing my demons
I'm trading my sins in…for wins and
I'm taking my freedom
Replacing my sentence…with penance
I've got my reasons
For shit that I've lived with…but this is
My time and my season
As hard as this is it's…intended
I'm facing my demons